Hey!
It's been a while since I clicked the 'new post' button, hasn't it? I mean, more than a month has passed since the last post. I did not forget about my blog, of course I didn't, I thought about it every single fucking day but I did not feel in the mood to write something, specially after my last post. Talking about that. I think that I'm not that sad anymore. Youtube sure has helped. So did anime and gaming. Have I told you that I have a new computer? No? Well, his name is Fred and he's a Toshiba and he has windows 7 and I'm so happy. This used to be my old computer but my dad needed it to do some work so about two and a half years ago we changed computers. And now I finally have it back! Yay! I now have two computers, not that I'm complaining. I recieved Fred on my birthday, wich was on the 19th of August. My uncle and aunt were over, Maia and Hanna, my friend from the north were over, and we spent the afternoon playing Super Mario Bros on my wii. It was a good day.
Talking about good, well, this is not exactly 'good', but meh. I finally know my class. I'm in a class with more 28 people that I have no fucking clue who they are, and the girl that I mentioned on my last post that doesn't like 5SOS. Well, this should be fun, right? At least she likes All Time Low. And, funny fact, there's only six girls (including me and Jess (the girl that dislikes 5SOS)) on a 30-students class. Great!
More things.
Fred has over two hundred GB of memory, wich means I can download Team Fortress 2. I did. I played it. I kept dying. You need money to buy more guns. I do not have money. So basically, I'm screwed. But it's fun. I played it with James and he killed me more than fifty times. I killed him twice. I'm proud of myself!
I didn't mention this on my last post but I HAVE A FUCKING ELECTRIC GUITAR!!! I called her Maia (yep, she has the same name as my best friend :P) and she's so beautiful. I have her since before my last post. I've learned a bunch of 5SOS musics (just the intro though) and I'm really proud of myself because I can play 'Come as you are' by Nirvana on the guitar. Yey! And I'm learning 'Sweet child o'mine' (or whatever that music is called, I'm too lazy to go and check) by Guns 'n Roses (I don't know how to write the name of the band either, I'm sorry) and AERGRFDNKVBNEJKD that shit is hard.
I'm making my notebooks that I'm going to use for school more pretty by painting them. I'm even doing a planner. You can say that I'm good at arts and crafts. Maybe, I don't know, but I do like DIY's so, yeah, I'm having fun.
I recieved a bunch of books for my birthday, and I read the fourth book of The Giver and OMFA that was adjsiklngv and now I'm reading 'Beautiful Creatures' and I'm falling in love with that shit. The movie is one of my all time favourites and there's three more books that I need to buy, oma. I have a lot of other books that I recieved, I'll keep you updated while I'm reading them. This can also be a book review blog. Yey.
Talking about anime, I'm on the 19th episode of the seconds season of Code Geass (I know, I'm still watching Code Geass, what a loser, but I'm going to watch Free! next, so that's a motivation) and OMA I DO NOT LIKE LELOUCH HE'S BECOMING OVERWHELMED BY HIS POWER AND C.C. LOST HER MEMORY AND IT'S NOT FUNNY ANYMORE BECAUSE WE DON'T GET HER SASSY REMARKS ANYMORE NOW SHE'S SCARED OF LELOUCH, WHO IS A SWEETHEART BUT NOW NUNALLY IS DEAD AND SUZAKI IS A BITCH, I DON'T REALLY KNOW WHY, BUT HE HIS, AND I DO NOT LIKE ROLO BECAUSE HE WANTS TO KILL EVERYONE AND LELOUCH ALSO THINKS HE CAN KILL EVERYONE AND CAN WE TALK ABOUT THE FACT THAT SHIRLEY DIED?!?!?! I MEAN WHYY?!
I'm good now, I've let all my anger out, I'm okay now.
Life is good. Life is amazing.
My parents want to get a divorce.
You want to know my opinion? I do want them to get a divorce. It will be the best for all of us. My parents spend their days yelling at each other and if me and my mum just moved out it would be better. But my dad is not okay and he needs someone. And I cannot be that someone because I do not know how to deal with that kind of stuff. And to be honest, I do not want to go throught the hassle of moving out again because my fandom wall would have to be destroyed and I do not want that. But I don't think they will go through with that idea. Yeah, maybe things won't change. As long as I have anime and music and Youtube, life's good.
One more thing. Yesterday I watched the 'For people who self harm' Lukas' video, and that inspired me to do something. So the #CutCakeNotWrists challenge is when you write the sentence #CutCake in the place where you usually self-harm, through a week, a letter for week. You only write a letter if you do not self harm during that day. If you manage to write the sentence, after that first week withouth self-harming, you can treat yourself with some cake or anything else you enjoy, like a day at the spa (idk). Here's the link of the video, he explains things better than me. ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0umb_WksfnU ) Luke is a great youtuber, by the way, and you should totally check his channel. Back to the idea. I never self-harm, I'm too much of a chicken to do it, I can barely tolerate pain. But I'm a pretty dark person sometimes. So I thought in making my own version of the #CutCake challenge. It's all pretty much the same, but instead of writing 'cut cake' I'm going to write 'I'm happy' every day that I spend without feeling extremely sad or depressed or without wanting to do anything. In the end, I'm going to bake myself a microwave cake. Yey! It makes more sense to me to have written on my wrist 'I'm happy' than 'Cut Cake' since my problem is more related to happiness and feelings than the whole self-harm thing. I've started yesterday, I already have the hashtag done, at night I will write the 'I' if I manage to survive the day.
(update from future lora (26/7/2015): this is dumb and i realize it now. that's not how feeling work, you can't control them like like that. but i thought i could, and i was sorta desperate so, bare with my old self alright? okay, bai)
This was long. I'm going to meet my new class mates in eleven days. My school starts in fifteen days. I'm addicted to watching back to school hauls. I think I may have a problem Houston (waddup movie reference! (ahah I never even watched that movie (I don't even know what movie this belongs to :P)))
anyways.
Song of the day: (there will be five, one for each week that I'v been away and another because I can't choose just four)
Fun, by Troye Sivan OMFA I'M SO FUCKING ADDICTED TO THE TRXYE EP OMFA I CAN'T EVEN BEGIN TO EVEN I'M SO PROUD OF MY BOY!
Goodnight Moon, by Go Radio. It's such a great song, go listen to it.
Dance Floor Anthem (AKA I Don't Wanna Be In Love (idk the name of the song, but if you search any of these on youtube or spotify (if you're like me and you don't like music videos for some weird reason :P), you should find the song.), by Good Charlotte. THAT HAS TO BE MY FAVOURITE SONG OF ALL TIME I LOVE IT SO MUCH OMA OMA OMA
Young Volcanos, by Fall Out Boy because WE ARE WILD WE ARE LIKE YOUNG VOLCANOS! (I have that on my fandom wall by the way.)
Stuck On You, by New Politics IT'S BEAUTIFUL, THERE'S NO WORDS TO DESCRIBE IT, GO LISTEN TO IT!
And last but not least.
The Promise, by one of my favourite girl youtubers, Emma Blackery. It's such a beautiful and meaningful song and I love the music video (I opened an exception for this one because it's truly beautiful okay? okay.) and ASDFGN THE FEELS. Also, Emma reminds me of Hayley Williams for some reason. Am I the only one? Yes? Okay then.
I'm gonna go now. Keep smiling, like Kimmi says (I love her) (she's a youtuber btw) (youtube.com/kimmitalks) (it's amazing) (check it out) (okay there's way to many parenthesis in this post now)
Peace out dudes!
Lorac xx
PS-My relationship with Rin is still strong and he has helped me a lot. So the Lin ship is still on!
PSS-I'm going to add a player on top on the blog page with all the songs of the day that I've ever mentioned so it's easier for you to listen to them. And you can just open my blog to just listen to the playlist because it's just great music! :D
kay baii
