Hey!
Hello there. Long time no see. And this time I'm not at school. Everything is great! Right? Right? Kinda. I'm sick now. My whole body hurts. My throat hurts. My heart hurts. My brain hurts from not being abble to stop working. And it works in ways I do not want it to work.
My hair is reaaallyyyy long. And brown. And shiny. I like my hair. My hair is so pretty. I actually like my hair.
I'm sorry. I get random when I'm tired.
I have new earphones now. Earjacks. Little thingys you put in your ears to listen to music. Yeah. They're great. Both of the thingys work. So I can block everyone now. Yeya.
Let's get the elephant out of the room. I've stopped watching anime. Don't ask me why. I just did... I lost all kinds of motivation. To do anything. I don't write anymore. I used to LOVE writing, making stories up. Where has that gone? I don't even now myself. I've watched an anime called Anohana. It's cute and short. I'm in episode 5. I've stopped for a week. Don't really know why. But I stopped watching sao also. I hate that stuff. They ruined it. Bleh. Anyways,
I've gotten into physical series and movies now. I'm in episode 7 of the first season of Doctor Who AND OH MY SWEET ANGEL DO I LOVE THAT SHIT!!! And movies, I'm watching a lot of movies now. Yeah. It's nice. I've also wanted to watch Supernatural and finish The Misfits and start American Horror Story. And The Flash, Arrow and Constantine. These are like, the TV shows I want to start watching, and stay updated, at least in 2015.
Yeah. 2015 is coming.
I'm so tired.
I think this whole depression (not actually depression though) sad thing is getting better. It got worse since the summer. But I think it's getting better. I know I'll just be sad again one of these days. But Connor. Connor helped me in the past. Connor will help me now. Not just him. Every single youtuber. Be happy for them. I am. I'm trying at least. I just hope it works.
I'm sorry this is short. I just wanted to write something. Anything. Even if it's not anime related. I think everyone knows this blog stopped being anime related a long time ago. It's everything, It's a place where I can just type away and feel happy and sad without people judging me. Yeah. I like this. Like my little corner of the internet. Yey.
Song of the day: Guess We'll Never Know, by Carrie Hope Fletcher. And also Adored By Him. Both the original version by Doddie Clark, or the cover by Carrie. They have such beautiful voices that it's just ASDBJKDV songgasm. And Heartbreak Girl, 'cause that song literally sums up my life right now. Kinda.
Peace out dragons,
Lorac xx
Sunday, December 21, 2014
Wednesday, November 26, 2014
Love (NAR)
I have my mug of hot coffee, my fingerless gloves on. Hair's up, face's down. I've got Emma Blackery blasting into my ears. And I'm ready to write about a topic I've never really thought about without punishing myself for it. Love.
Hey!
For a 15 year old girl who is a hopeless romantic, I know absolutely NOTHING about love. I've never felt it, and I have no idea of how to know if what I'm feeling is somehow love related. Of course I love my parents, and my friends, but when it comes to boyfriend/girlfriend love, I'm completely clueless. And I hate being clueless. Everyone just says "Oh, you'll know if it's love." But what if I want it to be love, but I don't feel it?
I've never had a real boyfriend. And by real, I mean a physical, steady relationship. I've 'dated' two guys when I was eleven. Text relationship. One of them lasted 3 days. So, that doesn't count. I was so stupid. And when I was three years old I was supposedly in love with this boy who used to kiss me all the time. On the lips. But that doesn't also count. So, if we're talking about stuff that really matters, I've never been kissed, and I never had a boyfriend. But I've had a bunch of crushes. When I was in 8th grade, so about one and a half years ago, i had a crush in basically every single guy in my class. And there was this short, blond, fatty guy, who I had a crush on. For a day. And then about two months later he tells me he likes me. I guess I was really desperate because I texted him saying 'hell yeah, I like you too, let's date!'. THROUGH A FUCKING TEXT MESSAGE! Haven't you learn anything in 6th grade, 13 year old Lorac? I guess not. But the worse is yet to come. We were in a school trip to spain. And we were texting like "Oh, i love you so much" (yeah, we were already in the 'I love you' phase.) and then he says "Oh, I can't wait to kiss you when we get to spain." and then something in my brain just froze. And reality drowned on me. There was a voice in my head just yelling YOU'RE NOT FUCKING READY TO HAVE YOUR FIRST KISS GIRL JUST NO! And I ended up just crying and Kate told me to end 'things' up if I wasn't ready 'cause I would just end up hurting the poor guy. And I didn't want that. So Maia asked if I wanted her to go and tell the boy that I didn't like him. I think he cried.
That didn't went well. And now this whole crush thing is getting me really confused.
Let me explain. There's this guy in my class, Theo. And he's like a major nerd and really skinny and stupid and arrogant. But he's smart. And he has good back muscles. Like REALLY good. And sometimes he's really adorable. But sometimes I just think he's weird and I want to get away. And I think Mike, the guy who sits next to me and a big friend, isn't the biggest fan of him. And they were in the same class. And people just think he's weird. I like weird. But sometimes influences make me hate weird. Even though I am weird. And I really don't know wether I have a crush on him or not. And it doesn't really matter, does it? Who cares? He cares. He told me THROUGH A FUCKING FACEBOOK MESSAGE (and i want to kill the poor guy because of this) AND AWJHVEJHKBCDW. He hasn't mentioned that, I haven't mentioned it either. And we're just friends. Really friends good. I don't know if I want to keep it that way or if I want more. I keep saying "Wait, and see if anything happens." But then I really wanna be like OH YOU GO GIRL RISK IT ALL AND DO IT AND KISS THE HELL OUT OF IT but I'm scared that it'll be just like in 8th and I get scared and I just end up hurting him. I don't want that. I don't want stuff to be weird between us. I like being around him and being goofy and joking and telling him I hate him. And I really don't know.
Plus, there's this girl called Melany who used to be from Theo and Mike's class last year and she's annoying and I don't like her. (Mike says I'm like her. I hate him for that. I hate being compared to anyone). And I get INCREDIBLY STUPIDILY jealous whenever she's with Theo. Or Mike. Or Cole. Or whatever. But I don't like being jealous. I hate not knowing.
And Jess and Mike keep bugging me, saying that I have a crush on Theo and I deny it because I don't even know myself what I feel and Mike and Jess don't help. But Mike says I act diferently around the guy. So I don't know.
Graaa.
Anyways.
Song of the day: Perfect, by Emma Blackery.
Peace out dragons,
Lorac xx
Hey!
For a 15 year old girl who is a hopeless romantic, I know absolutely NOTHING about love. I've never felt it, and I have no idea of how to know if what I'm feeling is somehow love related. Of course I love my parents, and my friends, but when it comes to boyfriend/girlfriend love, I'm completely clueless. And I hate being clueless. Everyone just says "Oh, you'll know if it's love." But what if I want it to be love, but I don't feel it?
I've never had a real boyfriend. And by real, I mean a physical, steady relationship. I've 'dated' two guys when I was eleven. Text relationship. One of them lasted 3 days. So, that doesn't count. I was so stupid. And when I was three years old I was supposedly in love with this boy who used to kiss me all the time. On the lips. But that doesn't also count. So, if we're talking about stuff that really matters, I've never been kissed, and I never had a boyfriend. But I've had a bunch of crushes. When I was in 8th grade, so about one and a half years ago, i had a crush in basically every single guy in my class. And there was this short, blond, fatty guy, who I had a crush on. For a day. And then about two months later he tells me he likes me. I guess I was really desperate because I texted him saying 'hell yeah, I like you too, let's date!'. THROUGH A FUCKING TEXT MESSAGE! Haven't you learn anything in 6th grade, 13 year old Lorac? I guess not. But the worse is yet to come. We were in a school trip to spain. And we were texting like "Oh, i love you so much" (yeah, we were already in the 'I love you' phase.) and then he says "Oh, I can't wait to kiss you when we get to spain." and then something in my brain just froze. And reality drowned on me. There was a voice in my head just yelling YOU'RE NOT FUCKING READY TO HAVE YOUR FIRST KISS GIRL JUST NO! And I ended up just crying and Kate told me to end 'things' up if I wasn't ready 'cause I would just end up hurting the poor guy. And I didn't want that. So Maia asked if I wanted her to go and tell the boy that I didn't like him. I think he cried.
That didn't went well. And now this whole crush thing is getting me really confused.
Let me explain. There's this guy in my class, Theo. And he's like a major nerd and really skinny and stupid and arrogant. But he's smart. And he has good back muscles. Like REALLY good. And sometimes he's really adorable. But sometimes I just think he's weird and I want to get away. And I think Mike, the guy who sits next to me and a big friend, isn't the biggest fan of him. And they were in the same class. And people just think he's weird. I like weird. But sometimes influences make me hate weird. Even though I am weird. And I really don't know wether I have a crush on him or not. And it doesn't really matter, does it? Who cares? He cares. He told me THROUGH A FUCKING FACEBOOK MESSAGE (and i want to kill the poor guy because of this) AND AWJHVEJHKBCDW. He hasn't mentioned that, I haven't mentioned it either. And we're just friends. Really friends good. I don't know if I want to keep it that way or if I want more. I keep saying "Wait, and see if anything happens." But then I really wanna be like OH YOU GO GIRL RISK IT ALL AND DO IT AND KISS THE HELL OUT OF IT but I'm scared that it'll be just like in 8th and I get scared and I just end up hurting him. I don't want that. I don't want stuff to be weird between us. I like being around him and being goofy and joking and telling him I hate him. And I really don't know.
Plus, there's this girl called Melany who used to be from Theo and Mike's class last year and she's annoying and I don't like her. (Mike says I'm like her. I hate him for that. I hate being compared to anyone). And I get INCREDIBLY STUPIDILY jealous whenever she's with Theo. Or Mike. Or Cole. Or whatever. But I don't like being jealous. I hate not knowing.
And Jess and Mike keep bugging me, saying that I have a crush on Theo and I deny it because I don't even know myself what I feel and Mike and Jess don't help. But Mike says I act diferently around the guy. So I don't know.
Graaa.
Anyways.
Song of the day: Perfect, by Emma Blackery.
Peace out dragons,
Lorac xx
Sunday, October 19, 2014
SWORD ART ONLINE SPOILER ALERT
HEY!
OH MY ANGEL IM SO EXCITED TO WRITE THIS!
IM WATCHING SWORD ART ONLINE AND ITS LIKE THE MIDDLE OF THE SEASON, EPISODE 15 WHERE THE OPENING CHANGES AND THE GAME ENDEND AND KIRITO OR WHATEVER HIS NAME IS IS COMING BACK INTO THE NORMAL LIFE! and I figured that because my twitter followers wouldn't want to read my tweets about some 'stupid cartoon', I would write in here as the episode would go.
So, episode 15. (btw this will be just a mess because it will be random thoughts but yeah CONTENT as woto says so, fuck it!)
THE OPENING SPOILS A LOT OF THINGS LIKE NO, SHUT UP I DONT WANNA KNOW!!!
wait, am i still watching sao or is it Legend of Zelda?
THIS LOOKS A LOT LIKE ZELDA WHAT IS THIS?!
okay, so Kirito sister has a sword...
NO BOY BAD IDEA DONT DO THAT ITS STILL TOO EARLY FOR YOU TO PICK A SWORD AND FIGHT BOY!
OH NO POOR THING HE THOUGHT HE WAS STILL IN THE GAME NO COME HERE KIRITO LET ME HUG YOU AND BE YOUR ASUNA!!!
OH HES SO ADORABLE WITH HIS SISTER CAN I BE SUGU PLEASE!?
GOING TO SEE HER?
who's her?!
Wait shes hasnt woken up yet?!
TWO MONTHS AGO?!
WUT?
THEY HAD YET TO AWAKE?! WHAT DO YA MEAN?!
Of course hes behind it!
oh no Asuna...
Kirigaya, that's his name
nononono
nononononon
nononon
you cant like her asuna is supposed to end with kirito not with you you old bastard!
nonononono
inciesta not aproves
nknigsfhgshjsd
NONONONONO
HES SMELLING HER HAIR THAT BASTARD
DCNOIFGVRWSH
NONONO NO MARRIEAGE HES GOING TO RAPE HER
OF COURSE SHE DOESNT LIKE YOU YOURE A PEDOPHILE!!!
YOU GO KIRITO
Argus?
Lect?
WHAAAATTTT?!?!?
nnonononono thats just sick nonono
NO THE GUY LOVES HER YOU CANT ASK HIM TO NOT COME BACK LIKE COME ON KIRITO KILL THE BASTARD!
lol i keep calling him kirito his name is kirigaya lololol
nononono no me gusta nope nope nope
i like kirito's computer it has so many screens.
NO KIRITO YOURE NOT HOPELESS I LIKE YOU
kirito dont cry
oh great now ill start crying too
OH FUCK YOU SUGU AND YOUR WISE WORDS YOURE SO CUTE
whats happening?
KIRITO IS ADOPTED?!
wut? im confused
japanese hospitals are so modern I l-WAIT THEY'RE COUSINS WAAAAAAAAAAAAAT????
shes taking it really well
your heart belongs to her alone CAN YOU HEAR ME SCREAMING?! CAUSE IM SCREAMING REALLY LOUD RIGHT NOW!!! in my head cause its like midnight but yeah, you get the point.
lol poke
oni-chan is so adorable
wait wat just happened why did she run away?
YEY THREE SCREEN COMPUTER!
ASUNAAAAAAAAA
and it ended.
Well this was fun. I'm endind this here because 1. it takes too much effort to write and watch at the same time. 2. it's late and i want to watch the rest. 3. there's no three lolol
I'm sorry for the caps lock and lack of '''' these things '''' but too lazy to care :P
Anyways, song of the day is Misguided Ghosts, by Paramore. I've been listening to a lot of Paramore recently, they're so great!
I hate Cole. And Jess.
Peace out dragons,
Lorac xx
BTW CAN YOU BE HAPPY BECAUSE ANIME RELATED POST OH MY ANGEL YASS FINALLY I'VE MISSED WRITING THESE!
yess jess i just said i hate you over there. you can spank me at school on monday :P
OH MY ANGEL IM SO EXCITED TO WRITE THIS!
IM WATCHING SWORD ART ONLINE AND ITS LIKE THE MIDDLE OF THE SEASON, EPISODE 15 WHERE THE OPENING CHANGES AND THE GAME ENDEND AND KIRITO OR WHATEVER HIS NAME IS IS COMING BACK INTO THE NORMAL LIFE! and I figured that because my twitter followers wouldn't want to read my tweets about some 'stupid cartoon', I would write in here as the episode would go.
So, episode 15. (btw this will be just a mess because it will be random thoughts but yeah CONTENT as woto says so, fuck it!)
THE OPENING SPOILS A LOT OF THINGS LIKE NO, SHUT UP I DONT WANNA KNOW!!!
wait, am i still watching sao or is it Legend of Zelda?
THIS LOOKS A LOT LIKE ZELDA WHAT IS THIS?!
okay, so Kirito sister has a sword...
NO BOY BAD IDEA DONT DO THAT ITS STILL TOO EARLY FOR YOU TO PICK A SWORD AND FIGHT BOY!
OH NO POOR THING HE THOUGHT HE WAS STILL IN THE GAME NO COME HERE KIRITO LET ME HUG YOU AND BE YOUR ASUNA!!!
OH HES SO ADORABLE WITH HIS SISTER CAN I BE SUGU PLEASE!?
GOING TO SEE HER?
who's her?!
Wait shes hasnt woken up yet?!
TWO MONTHS AGO?!
WUT?
THEY HAD YET TO AWAKE?! WHAT DO YA MEAN?!
Of course hes behind it!
oh no Asuna...
Kirigaya, that's his name
nononono
nononononon
nononon
you cant like her asuna is supposed to end with kirito not with you you old bastard!
nonononono
inciesta not aproves
nknigsfhgshjsd
NONONONONO
HES SMELLING HER HAIR THAT BASTARD
DCNOIFGVRWSH
NONONO NO MARRIEAGE HES GOING TO RAPE HER
OF COURSE SHE DOESNT LIKE YOU YOURE A PEDOPHILE!!!
YOU GO KIRITO
Argus?
Lect?
WHAAAATTTT?!?!?
nnonononono thats just sick nonono
NO THE GUY LOVES HER YOU CANT ASK HIM TO NOT COME BACK LIKE COME ON KIRITO KILL THE BASTARD!
lol i keep calling him kirito his name is kirigaya lololol
nononono no me gusta nope nope nope
i like kirito's computer it has so many screens.
NO KIRITO YOURE NOT HOPELESS I LIKE YOU
kirito dont cry
oh great now ill start crying too
OH FUCK YOU SUGU AND YOUR WISE WORDS YOURE SO CUTE
whats happening?
KIRITO IS ADOPTED?!
wut? im confused
japanese hospitals are so modern I l-WAIT THEY'RE COUSINS WAAAAAAAAAAAAAT????
shes taking it really well
your heart belongs to her alone CAN YOU HEAR ME SCREAMING?! CAUSE IM SCREAMING REALLY LOUD RIGHT NOW!!! in my head cause its like midnight but yeah, you get the point.
lol poke
oni-chan is so adorable
wait wat just happened why did she run away?
YEY THREE SCREEN COMPUTER!
ASUNAAAAAAAAA
and it ended.
Well this was fun. I'm endind this here because 1. it takes too much effort to write and watch at the same time. 2. it's late and i want to watch the rest. 3. there's no three lolol
I'm sorry for the caps lock and lack of '''' these things '''' but too lazy to care :P
Anyways, song of the day is Misguided Ghosts, by Paramore. I've been listening to a lot of Paramore recently, they're so great!
I hate Cole. And Jess.
Peace out dragons,
Lorac xx
BTW CAN YOU BE HAPPY BECAUSE ANIME RELATED POST OH MY ANGEL YASS FINALLY I'VE MISSED WRITING THESE!
yess jess i just said i hate you over there. you can spank me at school on monday :P
Saturday, October 4, 2014
Yeah, definitely not anime related
Hey!
Hi. Hello there. It's been a long time hasn't it? It feels like too long. I've missed writing here. But school kinda keeps me busy. Except on the weekends.
So, let's start with the easy part, anime. FREE! BROKE MY HEART AND MADE ME FEEL SO HAPPY AT THE SAME TIME LIKE OMFA THAT SHIT IS SO CHEESY BUT AT THE SAME TIME IT MAKES ME WANT A FRIENDSHIP LIKE THEIRS AND ARGHSKJAJNDF RIN MUST MEAN ADORABLENESS BECAUSE THIS RIN IS ALSO ADORABLE AND CUTE IN HIS OWN WAY ASDSFKJDBNVSD THE FEELS!! I've finished downloading Sword Art Online, so I can watch it at school. Yey!
So, where do I go from here? Should I talk about my new school, James, my youtube channel or my parents.
My youtube channel. Me and Maia (AKA my best friend, as you may know, and whom real name is actually Rachel, i just use diferent names to protect their identities; for instance, James real name isn't James, but I not going to say it anyways.) are creating a youtube channel called the Machelli Project. The first two videos should have been out by wednesday the 1st and friday the 3rd, but Maia uploaded the unedited version and was unable to edit the video on time, so the Machelli Project will only exist next week. I'm excited.
Now about things that are kinda sad. And kinda serious. My parents argue. A lot. Since I remember there wasn't a single month that passed without my parents having a fight. And I thought it was okay, normal, for parents to call each other names and call out all the bad things they've ever done. I'd always thought it was normal, okay, because in the end they always restarted speaking to each other and being nice. But I was 6 at the time (the age when I remember the first BIG fight) and the only outside interaction I had was at school, where there weren't more parents for me to compare. But then I started going to sleepovers, and I realized that other people's parents didn't fight. Obviously because I was there. But still. They always seemed so... Lovely and happy near each other. And my friends never complained about their parents. I also never did. It wasn't something I was proud of, and because I thought it was normal, I never felt the urge to comment that. You don't comment what's normal. But in the past three years, my parents have been fighting a lot more than usual. And the aftermath usually lasts for two to three weeks before everything comes to normal. And now my mom is saying that she wants the divorce. But that she can't divorce my dad because she has no money, and we're drowning in my dads debts, which are my mom's because he made her sign the papers. And my mom is the only one who works in the house, and there's no money coming now because 1) the debts and 2) my parents had a car crush in may, and while my dad came out withouth gettin hurt, my mom broke a thing in her back, and now she hasn't been working since then. And about four days ago, my mom burst into my room, aparently in the middle of a fight (I didn't hear because I had my headphones on) and says with that voice that means trouble "Where's my phone, I need to call the police, your father just hit me.". And my heart stoped. And I didn't know what to do. I started crying but I stopped because I don't cry, and then I went to see what was happening and my dad was screaming and my mom was screaming and my grandad was with his hand on my mom's shoulder saying 'calm down there's no need to fight' and then my dad says "Lora go to your room and close the door" and I got really scared. But now they still don't speak and I don't know what to do. It was the first time my dad physically hurted my mom, and I don't know.
(update from future lora in july 2015: I make it sound like this is a really bad thing. I was scared for the future of my parents. But things weren't that bad, even though they sound like it. honestly, i'm considering taking this post down because it might give the internet the wrong idea)
But onto more happy things. Okay, maybe not so happy. James. James. James has got a freaking crush. On a girl. Like WUT?! You can't do this to me boy, it's not allowed. You're breaking the law. And my heart. Even though I swore to Maia that I didn't like him anymore. And though I swore to myself that no boy would ever broke my heart and that I would never cry over some stupid crush. That doesn't even exist anymore in this case. But still. The guy is a cold-hearted bitch and now he has a fucking crush?! Nope, nope, that is wrong. And I don't know who the fuck she is, but I bet she's hot and cute and a lot nerdier than I am, and I bet she's beautiful and I bet that they look so cute together and that they oh angel, oh my dear angel, please kill my feelings now.
Okay. I'm okay.
On to the new school. OH MY FUCKING ANGEL I HAVE FRIENDS. There's this guy who is the worst person ever and he's really mean and I really hate him and he's always making fun of me. I shouldn't take it personal, but I do because insecurities. And he's a douchebag. And then there's this really tall guy called Luke (omfa I hope that Jess (remember her? the girl who dislikes 5sos but loves atl?) doesn't read this, I'm gonna get so much crap about this... oh well...) who I think I've already mentioned and he's fucking adorable and cute and he's adorable. And tall. And me and Jess love to hug him. Well, we love to hug everyone. Especially this guy called Cole who sits next to Jess in class, and in front of me, and we love to annoy the shit out of him. And he's an idiot but he's also really cute and he's voice is really nice to hear and adfg it's cute. (Wait Jess, I hope that you aren't reading this, please don't be reading this. I love you.) and then there's his friend called Michael and he's an adorable little tumblr shit that listens to blink-182 and he's cute. There are a lot of cute people in my class now that I think about it. Oh well.
And Friday (yesterday) I had a little breakdown, and I stopped being bubbly and hyper and Jess noticed and she tried to cheer me up and it was really cute and then Cole also noticed and he wasn't taling to me because I called him an idiot and then he asked what was wrong and I didn't told them and they tried to cheer me up anyways and it was really cute and argh friends are so nice. Also, they give the best hugs.
Talking about the now, I'm sick, really sick. I think it's sun stroke or whatever you call it, but yeah, I have that because tuesday we went to the park and it was really sunny and my head and sun and sweat and now my head hurts. And I should study for a math quiz I'm having this monday but I can't because my head hurts. And I can't take any medication because I'm kinda staright edge and I don't do drugs so no medicine for me but it hurts. Wait, I've just realized that I toke two pills because of a reaction my body made to a mosquito bite. WAIT I BROKE THE LAW OH NO. Oh well, there's nothing I can do now. Anyways.
ALSO IN THE LAST WEEK OF OCTOBER MY PE CLASSES WILL BE ON THE SWIMMING POOL NEXT TO MY SCHOOL AND WE'RE GOING TO SWIM AND LEARN HOW TO SWIM AND 1)FREE! AND 2) I'M GOING TO BE GOU BECAUSE HALF NAKED WET SEXY DUMB WITH FUCKING NIPPLES GUYS OMFA IT'S GOING TO BE GREAT!!!
song of the day: Begin again, by The Summer Set. I've been listening to a lot of their music recently, and I just love the vibes that their songs sent, and begin again has to be one of my favourite songs by them.
So baii guyeses.
Peace out dragons (i stopped using dudes since veeoneeye's scandal and yeah, I don't wanna talk 'bout that...) (and dragons is much cooler) (i mean) (dragons)
Lorac xx
Hi. Hello there. It's been a long time hasn't it? It feels like too long. I've missed writing here. But school kinda keeps me busy. Except on the weekends.
So, let's start with the easy part, anime. FREE! BROKE MY HEART AND MADE ME FEEL SO HAPPY AT THE SAME TIME LIKE OMFA THAT SHIT IS SO CHEESY BUT AT THE SAME TIME IT MAKES ME WANT A FRIENDSHIP LIKE THEIRS AND ARGHSKJAJNDF RIN MUST MEAN ADORABLENESS BECAUSE THIS RIN IS ALSO ADORABLE AND CUTE IN HIS OWN WAY ASDSFKJDBNVSD THE FEELS!! I've finished downloading Sword Art Online, so I can watch it at school. Yey!
So, where do I go from here? Should I talk about my new school, James, my youtube channel or my parents.
My youtube channel. Me and Maia (AKA my best friend, as you may know, and whom real name is actually Rachel, i just use diferent names to protect their identities; for instance, James real name isn't James, but I not going to say it anyways.) are creating a youtube channel called the Machelli Project. The first two videos should have been out by wednesday the 1st and friday the 3rd, but Maia uploaded the unedited version and was unable to edit the video on time, so the Machelli Project will only exist next week. I'm excited.
Now about things that are kinda sad. And kinda serious. My parents argue. A lot. Since I remember there wasn't a single month that passed without my parents having a fight. And I thought it was okay, normal, for parents to call each other names and call out all the bad things they've ever done. I'd always thought it was normal, okay, because in the end they always restarted speaking to each other and being nice. But I was 6 at the time (the age when I remember the first BIG fight) and the only outside interaction I had was at school, where there weren't more parents for me to compare. But then I started going to sleepovers, and I realized that other people's parents didn't fight. Obviously because I was there. But still. They always seemed so... Lovely and happy near each other. And my friends never complained about their parents. I also never did. It wasn't something I was proud of, and because I thought it was normal, I never felt the urge to comment that. You don't comment what's normal. But in the past three years, my parents have been fighting a lot more than usual. And the aftermath usually lasts for two to three weeks before everything comes to normal. And now my mom is saying that she wants the divorce. But that she can't divorce my dad because she has no money, and we're drowning in my dads debts, which are my mom's because he made her sign the papers. And my mom is the only one who works in the house, and there's no money coming now because 1) the debts and 2) my parents had a car crush in may, and while my dad came out withouth gettin hurt, my mom broke a thing in her back, and now she hasn't been working since then. And about four days ago, my mom burst into my room, aparently in the middle of a fight (I didn't hear because I had my headphones on) and says with that voice that means trouble "Where's my phone, I need to call the police, your father just hit me.". And my heart stoped. And I didn't know what to do. I started crying but I stopped because I don't cry, and then I went to see what was happening and my dad was screaming and my mom was screaming and my grandad was with his hand on my mom's shoulder saying 'calm down there's no need to fight' and then my dad says "Lora go to your room and close the door" and I got really scared. But now they still don't speak and I don't know what to do. It was the first time my dad physically hurted my mom, and I don't know.
(update from future lora in july 2015: I make it sound like this is a really bad thing. I was scared for the future of my parents. But things weren't that bad, even though they sound like it. honestly, i'm considering taking this post down because it might give the internet the wrong idea)
But onto more happy things. Okay, maybe not so happy. James. James. James has got a freaking crush. On a girl. Like WUT?! You can't do this to me boy, it's not allowed. You're breaking the law. And my heart. Even though I swore to Maia that I didn't like him anymore. And though I swore to myself that no boy would ever broke my heart and that I would never cry over some stupid crush. That doesn't even exist anymore in this case. But still. The guy is a cold-hearted bitch and now he has a fucking crush?! Nope, nope, that is wrong. And I don't know who the fuck she is, but I bet she's hot and cute and a lot nerdier than I am, and I bet she's beautiful and I bet that they look so cute together and that they oh angel, oh my dear angel, please kill my feelings now.
Okay. I'm okay.
On to the new school. OH MY FUCKING ANGEL I HAVE FRIENDS. There's this guy who is the worst person ever and he's really mean and I really hate him and he's always making fun of me. I shouldn't take it personal, but I do because insecurities. And he's a douchebag. And then there's this really tall guy called Luke (omfa I hope that Jess (remember her? the girl who dislikes 5sos but loves atl?) doesn't read this, I'm gonna get so much crap about this... oh well...) who I think I've already mentioned and he's fucking adorable and cute and he's adorable. And tall. And me and Jess love to hug him. Well, we love to hug everyone. Especially this guy called Cole who sits next to Jess in class, and in front of me, and we love to annoy the shit out of him. And he's an idiot but he's also really cute and he's voice is really nice to hear and adfg it's cute. (Wait Jess, I hope that you aren't reading this, please don't be reading this. I love you.) and then there's his friend called Michael and he's an adorable little tumblr shit that listens to blink-182 and he's cute. There are a lot of cute people in my class now that I think about it. Oh well.
And Friday (yesterday) I had a little breakdown, and I stopped being bubbly and hyper and Jess noticed and she tried to cheer me up and it was really cute and then Cole also noticed and he wasn't taling to me because I called him an idiot and then he asked what was wrong and I didn't told them and they tried to cheer me up anyways and it was really cute and argh friends are so nice. Also, they give the best hugs.
Talking about the now, I'm sick, really sick. I think it's sun stroke or whatever you call it, but yeah, I have that because tuesday we went to the park and it was really sunny and my head and sun and sweat and now my head hurts. And I should study for a math quiz I'm having this monday but I can't because my head hurts. And I can't take any medication because I'm kinda staright edge and I don't do drugs so no medicine for me but it hurts. Wait, I've just realized that I toke two pills because of a reaction my body made to a mosquito bite. WAIT I BROKE THE LAW OH NO. Oh well, there's nothing I can do now. Anyways.
ALSO IN THE LAST WEEK OF OCTOBER MY PE CLASSES WILL BE ON THE SWIMMING POOL NEXT TO MY SCHOOL AND WE'RE GOING TO SWIM AND LEARN HOW TO SWIM AND 1)FREE! AND 2) I'M GOING TO BE GOU BECAUSE HALF NAKED WET SEXY DUMB WITH FUCKING NIPPLES GUYS OMFA IT'S GOING TO BE GREAT!!!
song of the day: Begin again, by The Summer Set. I've been listening to a lot of their music recently, and I just love the vibes that their songs sent, and begin again has to be one of my favourite songs by them.
So baii guyeses.
Peace out dragons (i stopped using dudes since veeoneeye's scandal and yeah, I don't wanna talk 'bout that...) (and dragons is much cooler) (i mean) (dragons)
Lorac xx
Saturday, September 20, 2014
School (nar)
Hey!
So… School
huh? And Free!? I have two episodes to catch up to, but my internet is shit
right now, that’s why you’re reading a post I wrote on Friday on Sunday or
Saturday or whatever. But there was a storm and lightning and that ruined my
internet connection because I connect to a hotspot and blah blah blah.
So, going
back to the topic of school. The first week of school finished today and to say
that I’m exhausted, physically and mentally, is saying very little. I could die
right now. My shoulders are killing me because of the weight of all the books
in my backpack and my Maths and my Portuguese (shocker, I’m from Portugal :O
now you know, big deal) books still haven’t arrived yet. And I need them.
Anyways. I study everyday now, I go through everything I wrote in class and all
that so I don't leave everything to study on the weekend right before the day of
the test. My schedule is kinda weird now. I have 50 minutes blocks of classes,
and when there’s always a break between each block. So I can go and eat in the
middle of Math class. Amazing!
And now
we’ll get to the real shit. The classmates. We’re a total of 31, 3 more people
than what the law says. We are the biggest class in the school. We’re eight
girls and 23 boys. Most of them are really nice, but I’m weird, so I’m not the
nicest person. They say I’m mean. And I’m totally aware that they’re just
joking. But that makes me think that maybe I should just be… quiet. Don’t say a
word. Just shut up. I listen a lot more than last year, I’m a lot more quieter
than I was before. Simply because I know that if I say something, I’ll make a
fool of myself.
And I want
to be different. I don’t want to be like all of those girls you see around in
the corridors wearing short shirts and skinny leggings and high heels and
leather purses and their books in their hands. I wear a stupid blue and white
squared backpack, full of useless stuff. I wear sweatshirts most of the time. I
wear the baggiest shirts. I have a lot more black stuff than before. I listen to
All Time Low and Panic! At The Disco but I don’t listen to Pierce The Veil
or Black Veil Brides because I’m way too lazy to do that. I take months to
watch a 25-episodes anime because I procrastinate and watch YouTube videos
instead. I read a lot. I’m not a gamer, I don’t listen to screamo and punk music.
I’m not mean. I just don’t like people. I don’t like being under people’s
judgment. So I become this tough girl who pretends that she’s a gamer and a
rebel who wants to go against the law. I’m not. I just want to stay at home and
cry over the fact that Gwen Stacy is dead and Peter won’t have the love of his
life anymore. I suck at badminton, but a lot of people think that I’m good
because I’ve had five years of experience. Guess what? I suck at it because I’m
way too lazy. My legs are way too large and my stomach is as flaccid as raw meat,
which is gross.
But I want
people to see me like I’m this tough girl who does all of these cool stuff. But
I’m not. I really want to play games, but I won’t have time to do that. I wish
I could listen to Black Veil Brides without cringing a little, but I do. I’m
not up to the standards I have for me and it makes me frustrated because I feel
like I don’t want to be myself because I’m afraid people won’t accept me. They
will like the other girl better because she plays League Of Legends or because
she listens to that type of music that nobody knows about. They won’t like me.
I try to be funny but I fail miserably and end up making other people believe
that I feel sorry for myself. I don’t. I couldn’t care less if they call me
mean. Because I am mean. I make those sassy sarcastic remarks, I offend
everyone, I am way too loud, I love anime more than gaming and I spend 90% of
my computer time on YouTube. I make puns and I get a lot of crushes. I read way
too many books, I am intelligent. Fucking hell, I love Maths and I weird myself
out because my brain keeps thinking and thinking and it never stops and I get
scared because I just need rest. And in the end I really like that class. They
are nice to me. I’m not nice to them, but everyone has their own personalities.
There’s this really cute and tall guy who seems to always be scared and really
shy but when he opens up he’s awesome. And there’s this really short guy who
loves YouTube almost as much as me and he even says the same PewDiePie
references as me. And there’s these girls who are really intelligent. And
everyone participates so much in class that I’m afraid that’ll I stay behind
because I don’t participate because I’m afraid I’ll make a fool of myself if I
get it wrong. But fuck, they do it, they get the answers wrong and I don’t
think they’re losers, why would they think that of me?! And there’s a lot of
not lazy guys, which is new. And they always smile if me or anyone else from
the rest of the class pass by them. And we now have a facebook group, which is
the shittiest but awesomest thing ever because we talk through that and make
fun of each other and we talk on skype and it’s fun. And they are SO different
from my old class, and I miss my old class so much. But at the same time I’m so
glad I’m in this class, alone. We don’t have the stupid rumors we had in my old
class. Because we’re so little girls, there’s always a boy around, and that’s
different from before because we were separated in girls and me and Maia and
the boys. And I like that we don’t have little groups, we are all one big
united group.
In one
class we had to make a little presentation of ourselves, and the teacher said
to one of the guys “So, you already know one or two friends here” and he
answered “I had one or two friends, but now I have thirty more” and we all
‘awed’ collectively and it was so cute. And we have our own private jokes and
they make me forget all the shit about home, and about everything else.
I don’t
have to be anyone else for these people to accept me, they already have within
one week of me being the meanest person ever to them. Sure yeah, they call me
mean, and I call them idiots. We all dislike our philosophy teacher so, we’re
in this together. I have fun with them, I like them. They’re different in a
good way, and I like that.
So, I’m
sorry that was a little big. And not anime related, again. Get used to it!
Song of the
day: Warriors, by Imagine Dragons. GUYES CAN WE TALK ABOUT HOW AMAZING THIS
SONG IS?! It was made for the League Of Legends World Championship, which begun
Thursday I think? I don’t know, anyways, the lyrics are so argh, and I’m not
even a gamer and I kinda feel the song? Maybe because I always wanted to make a
videogame? I don’t know. But the song is really powerful and amazing, and you
can download it for free on the LoL website FOR FREE or you can be a piece of
shit and go on iTunes and pay 1,79$ for it. Your choice. But it’s my new
favorite song so… yeah. Go listen to it right now!
Peace out
dudes,
Lorac xx
Monday, September 8, 2014
Quick reminder
I'M GOU! I'M SO LIKE GOU WHEN I WATCH FREE! BECAUSE ALL THE MUSCLES AND OMFA.
that's all. baii
that's all. baii
Code Geass: The end/ Free!: The Begining
Hey!
I have good news. I HAVE FINALLY FINISHED WATCHING CODE GEASS! AND OH MY FUCKING BEAUTIFUL ANGEL THAT WAS ONE OF THE MOST BEAUTIFUL AND HORRIBLE AND AMAZEBALLS THING I HAVE EVER SEEN! THE LAST EPISODE OH MY ANGEL.
Okay, so it's better if I start somewhere. That somewhere being the last episode because ASDFGHJK
Anyways.
Lelouch dies. That's what it took to finish the war and to make everyone happy. And Suzaki is now the new Zero. That's weird. But, I think that Lelouch was supposed to die from the begining. You can't just take away all of people's wills and get away with it. That's wrong. But the fact that he choose to die was really brave. And when he lied to all of those people and got that much hatred just for that in the end it would be easier to eliminate all of that hatred. Clap, clap Mr. Lelouch, that was incredible. But when Lelouch fall down that car thingy on the scene where he dies, Nunally screams broke my heart. That part was so touching because in the middle of all of that happiness that Lelouch, the 'bad' guy, was finally gone, there was one person who knew the whole story and who suffered, and that show us that you can never make everyone happy. But I think that the fact that Nunally was unhappy was worth the rest of the world.
AND CAN WE TALK ABOUT OGHI AND THE OTHER GIRL'S MARRIAGE AND THAT SHE'S PREGNANT OH MY ANGEL SADFGFHGFDS THE FEELS!
And how happy C.C. was in the end. And Kallen. Oh my, Kallen.
And Suzaki. He did a lot of stuff wrong, and most of the time in the anime he was in the wrong side of the battle. But what he did was with the best of intentions and I believe that the burden that he carries now (of being Zero) is enough to make him pay.
So this was only half of the post. I'm writing this right after I finished watching Code Geass. The other half that is bellow will be about my thoughts on Free!, which I'm about to watch so, see ya later!
Hey!
It's actually two days later after I wrote the things above. Why did it took me so long? Because I was watching Free! That's right. AND I FUCKING FINISHED THE FIRST SEASON IN TWO FUCKING DAYS AND OMFA THAT WAS WAY TOO CHEESY AND EMOTIONAL AND BEAUTIFUL AND FREE FOR ME!!!
First of all, there's a guy named Rin, that makes me like the anime even more. Seconds, he has pointy teeth! What's with the anime characters named Rin and having pointy teeth?! Anyways.
Third, THERE WERE A LOT OF TOPLESS WET STRONG DUMB GUYS WITHOUT NIPPLES! I don't understand. Don't Japanese people have nipples? I don't know.
Let's talk about Haru, shall we? He's the most adorable and weird and silent and mature guy I've ever seen. He doesn't smile but I like to think like Nigasa, Haru is always smiling on the inside. And asdfghnvfds I can't talk about him anymore, it's too much. I still prefer Rin Okumura though, he has a cute sense of humor, nothing beats that.
And then there's Makoto. HE'S THE BESTEST FRIEND ANYONE COULD HAVE ASKED FOR AND HE'S SO CARING AND ADORABLE AND MUSCLE AND ASDFGB WHERE CAN I BUY A MAKOTO?!
And Nigasa is just the kid, and he's adorable.
And Rei. I feel kinda bad for him because he didn't get to swim with the other guys on the relay, but what he did was really sweet and nice, and he's so amazing because he keeps thinking that things are beautiful and you don't see a guy talk like that frequently, so seeing that was hilarious.
Also, was I the only one who noticed that these guys have the weirdest hair/eye colors? Like oh my angel, Rei has blue-ish hair and purple eyes and Makoto has green-ish hair and green eyes and Haru has the most beautiful shade of blue in his eyes, it's so beautiful. And Rin has red eyes and red hair and Nigasa has red eyes and light brown hair and the hair and the eyes kinda match and that's so cool but at the same time weird. People in animes have the weirdest eye/hair colors. That's so amazing.
AND CAN WE TALK ABOUT THE FACT THAT RIN IS JUST A SWEETHEART WHO NEEDED A FRIEND AND NOW EVERYTHING IS OKAY AND AWESOME AND ASDFGHJ RIN IS THE MOST CARING AND ADORABLE PERSON ON THE INSIDE OKAY?!
So, it's kinda obvious that I loved Free! isn't it? I'm now going to watch Free!: Eternal Summer, so, maybe I'll post something about that.
By the way, my school starts in a week, can you hear my tears? No, but probably the updates will be in less quantity but hopefully the quality will be the same. Talking about my anime schedule, I won't probably watch that much. Guess summer wasn't enough to watch all of those animes that I wanted to watch, huh? But after Free! I really want to check out what's "Adventure Time" (I'm totally aware that it's not an anime) because I keep hearing youtubers talking about that and the characters are kinda cute so, I wanna check out that. Also, I want to try and finish the first season of Doctor Who before I go to school. That shit only has 15 episodes so, I think I'm going to be okay. And if I still end up without anything to watch, I have my list :D
Anyways, I think that's it. I don't think I ever thanked you for reading this? I didn't? Oh, there's no one there? Okay then. But thanks shadows, for reading this. This blog has helped me out a lot. So yeah.
Song of the day: Fireworks, by You Me At Six. I love them. And I love shouting I DON'T KNOW WHO YOU ARE!!! every time I see someone I know :P just like Jack And Dean did in one of their videos ahah
I'm so happy.
I'm sad, school is starting in a week. In two days I will meet my new classmates. I still have no fucking clue of what I'm going to wear. oops (yeah, that's a big deal for me, I like to have things planned out before-hand okay? okay.)
Peace out dudes!
Lorac xx
I have good news. I HAVE FINALLY FINISHED WATCHING CODE GEASS! AND OH MY FUCKING BEAUTIFUL ANGEL THAT WAS ONE OF THE MOST BEAUTIFUL AND HORRIBLE AND AMAZEBALLS THING I HAVE EVER SEEN! THE LAST EPISODE OH MY ANGEL.
Okay, so it's better if I start somewhere. That somewhere being the last episode because ASDFGHJK
Anyways.
Lelouch dies. That's what it took to finish the war and to make everyone happy. And Suzaki is now the new Zero. That's weird. But, I think that Lelouch was supposed to die from the begining. You can't just take away all of people's wills and get away with it. That's wrong. But the fact that he choose to die was really brave. And when he lied to all of those people and got that much hatred just for that in the end it would be easier to eliminate all of that hatred. Clap, clap Mr. Lelouch, that was incredible. But when Lelouch fall down that car thingy on the scene where he dies, Nunally screams broke my heart. That part was so touching because in the middle of all of that happiness that Lelouch, the 'bad' guy, was finally gone, there was one person who knew the whole story and who suffered, and that show us that you can never make everyone happy. But I think that the fact that Nunally was unhappy was worth the rest of the world.
AND CAN WE TALK ABOUT OGHI AND THE OTHER GIRL'S MARRIAGE AND THAT SHE'S PREGNANT OH MY ANGEL SADFGFHGFDS THE FEELS!
And how happy C.C. was in the end. And Kallen. Oh my, Kallen.
And Suzaki. He did a lot of stuff wrong, and most of the time in the anime he was in the wrong side of the battle. But what he did was with the best of intentions and I believe that the burden that he carries now (of being Zero) is enough to make him pay.
So this was only half of the post. I'm writing this right after I finished watching Code Geass. The other half that is bellow will be about my thoughts on Free!, which I'm about to watch so, see ya later!
Hey!
It's actually two days later after I wrote the things above. Why did it took me so long? Because I was watching Free! That's right. AND I FUCKING FINISHED THE FIRST SEASON IN TWO FUCKING DAYS AND OMFA THAT WAS WAY TOO CHEESY AND EMOTIONAL AND BEAUTIFUL AND FREE FOR ME!!!
First of all, there's a guy named Rin, that makes me like the anime even more. Seconds, he has pointy teeth! What's with the anime characters named Rin and having pointy teeth?! Anyways.
Third, THERE WERE A LOT OF TOPLESS WET STRONG DUMB GUYS WITHOUT NIPPLES! I don't understand. Don't Japanese people have nipples? I don't know.
Let's talk about Haru, shall we? He's the most adorable and weird and silent and mature guy I've ever seen. He doesn't smile but I like to think like Nigasa, Haru is always smiling on the inside. And asdfghnvfds I can't talk about him anymore, it's too much. I still prefer Rin Okumura though, he has a cute sense of humor, nothing beats that.
And then there's Makoto. HE'S THE BESTEST FRIEND ANYONE COULD HAVE ASKED FOR AND HE'S SO CARING AND ADORABLE AND MUSCLE AND ASDFGB WHERE CAN I BUY A MAKOTO?!
And Nigasa is just the kid, and he's adorable.
And Rei. I feel kinda bad for him because he didn't get to swim with the other guys on the relay, but what he did was really sweet and nice, and he's so amazing because he keeps thinking that things are beautiful and you don't see a guy talk like that frequently, so seeing that was hilarious.
Also, was I the only one who noticed that these guys have the weirdest hair/eye colors? Like oh my angel, Rei has blue-ish hair and purple eyes and Makoto has green-ish hair and green eyes and Haru has the most beautiful shade of blue in his eyes, it's so beautiful. And Rin has red eyes and red hair and Nigasa has red eyes and light brown hair and the hair and the eyes kinda match and that's so cool but at the same time weird. People in animes have the weirdest eye/hair colors. That's so amazing.
AND CAN WE TALK ABOUT THE FACT THAT RIN IS JUST A SWEETHEART WHO NEEDED A FRIEND AND NOW EVERYTHING IS OKAY AND AWESOME AND ASDFGHJ RIN IS THE MOST CARING AND ADORABLE PERSON ON THE INSIDE OKAY?!
So, it's kinda obvious that I loved Free! isn't it? I'm now going to watch Free!: Eternal Summer, so, maybe I'll post something about that.
By the way, my school starts in a week, can you hear my tears? No, but probably the updates will be in less quantity but hopefully the quality will be the same. Talking about my anime schedule, I won't probably watch that much. Guess summer wasn't enough to watch all of those animes that I wanted to watch, huh? But after Free! I really want to check out what's "Adventure Time" (I'm totally aware that it's not an anime) because I keep hearing youtubers talking about that and the characters are kinda cute so, I wanna check out that. Also, I want to try and finish the first season of Doctor Who before I go to school. That shit only has 15 episodes so, I think I'm going to be okay. And if I still end up without anything to watch, I have my list :D
Anyways, I think that's it. I don't think I ever thanked you for reading this? I didn't? Oh, there's no one there? Okay then. But thanks shadows, for reading this. This blog has helped me out a lot. So yeah.
Song of the day: Fireworks, by You Me At Six. I love them. And I love shouting I DON'T KNOW WHO YOU ARE!!! every time I see someone I know :P just like Jack And Dean did in one of their videos ahah
I'm so happy.
I'm sad, school is starting in a week. In two days I will meet my new classmates. I still have no fucking clue of what I'm going to wear. oops (yeah, that's a big deal for me, I like to have things planned out before-hand okay? okay.)
Peace out dudes!
Lorac xx
Friday, September 5, 2014
#I'mNotSoHappyButI'lBeOkay (nar)
That's what I should've written on my wrist.
Hey!
So the last two posts I made, I mentioned something called #I'mHappy challenge. Well, I realized this morning that it was stupid.
This morning I had a little 'breakdown'. I had sort of a fight with my mum, and then I started crying for 'no reason' and all those thoughts I've been trying to avoid for a week floated back into my mind like something that I can't think of right now that is like thoughts floating into my mind. My point is, this challenge was based on another challenge. But the #CutCake thing is more physical than psychological, it was based on stop doing something that you could control, your hands grabbing a blade and cutting your skin. But when it comes to your mind, there's always that little something you can't control. Add that little something to the fact that I'm on my period, and you have the reason behind my breakdown.
But there's another thing. What if I could have gone through the week and got my microwave cake in a mug. And then what? What would happen after that week? Would I be happy? Would I stop being... what I am now? (which is not depressed because I like to believe that I am better than I was a few months ago) I don't think so. You can't cure a mind in seven days. That's too little time to fix something broken for a whole life (which is 15 years for me).
Maybe my mind won't ever get fixed. Maybe I'll always have this broken side of me. Maybe I'll have to learn to live with it. And it's okay to have a broken side. It's okay to be sad and to cry cuddling to your teddy bear and sobbing like a mad dog for hours. And then falling asleep and having the weirdest dreams ever, which include crying to your death in one of them and a bad first day of school. Which totally isn't what hapenned to me this morning.
To be honest, I'm quite scared of this dark, broken side of me. Of the thoughts that it brings to my head. But I'm actually quite glad that I have it. It makes me more... Normal, I think? I don't know. I can't always be happy and bubbly, even though it's what I am (or try to be) 95% of the time. Just bear with me and my weird broken sad side for the other 5% okay? I will bear with yours. (I KNOW THERE'S NO ONE THERE OKAY I JUST LIKE TO PRETEND THERE IS DON'T JUDGE ME A GIRL CAN HAVE HER FANTASIES THAT TOTALLY DON'T SHOW HER NEED FOR LOVE-okay this went too far)
Well, I guess that's it.
Song of the day: This Is Me, by the one and only Charlie McDonnell (aka charlieissocoollike on youtube, i love him okay?) I wrote this blog post (only half of it though lol) listening to this song.
I've noticed that I put a shit load of youtubers music in song of the day and that I mention a lot of youtubers in this blog. Oh well, who cares?
Peace out dudes!
Lorac xx
Hey!
So the last two posts I made, I mentioned something called #I'mHappy challenge. Well, I realized this morning that it was stupid.
This morning I had a little 'breakdown'. I had sort of a fight with my mum, and then I started crying for 'no reason' and all those thoughts I've been trying to avoid for a week floated back into my mind like something that I can't think of right now that is like thoughts floating into my mind. My point is, this challenge was based on another challenge. But the #CutCake thing is more physical than psychological, it was based on stop doing something that you could control, your hands grabbing a blade and cutting your skin. But when it comes to your mind, there's always that little something you can't control. Add that little something to the fact that I'm on my period, and you have the reason behind my breakdown.
But there's another thing. What if I could have gone through the week and got my microwave cake in a mug. And then what? What would happen after that week? Would I be happy? Would I stop being... what I am now? (which is not depressed because I like to believe that I am better than I was a few months ago) I don't think so. You can't cure a mind in seven days. That's too little time to fix something broken for a whole life (which is 15 years for me).
Maybe my mind won't ever get fixed. Maybe I'll always have this broken side of me. Maybe I'll have to learn to live with it. And it's okay to have a broken side. It's okay to be sad and to cry cuddling to your teddy bear and sobbing like a mad dog for hours. And then falling asleep and having the weirdest dreams ever, which include crying to your death in one of them and a bad first day of school. Which totally isn't what hapenned to me this morning.
To be honest, I'm quite scared of this dark, broken side of me. Of the thoughts that it brings to my head. But I'm actually quite glad that I have it. It makes me more... Normal, I think? I don't know. I can't always be happy and bubbly, even though it's what I am (or try to be) 95% of the time. Just bear with me and my weird broken sad side for the other 5% okay? I will bear with yours. (I KNOW THERE'S NO ONE THERE OKAY I JUST LIKE TO PRETEND THERE IS DON'T JUDGE ME A GIRL CAN HAVE HER FANTASIES THAT TOTALLY DON'T SHOW HER NEED FOR LOVE-okay this went too far)
Well, I guess that's it.
Song of the day: This Is Me, by the one and only Charlie McDonnell (aka charlieissocoollike on youtube, i love him okay?) I wrote this blog post (only half of it though lol) listening to this song.
I've noticed that I put a shit load of youtubers music in song of the day and that I mention a lot of youtubers in this blog. Oh well, who cares?
Peace out dudes!
Lorac xx
Tuesday, September 2, 2014
Randomness (NAR)
Hey!
It doesn't seem like a month and something has passed since I wrote 'regularly' on my blog doesn't it? At least not for me. It kinda of seems like routine now. It's weird.
I haven't finished Code Geass yet. I'm sorry. But, in my defense, I've been busy with making my notebooks for back to school! I'm excited. I've finished my planner and my notebooks and all that shit. So I think I'm ready for back to school.
I've spent the whole day watching 'Becoming Youtube' by Benjamin Cook/ninebrassmonkeys on youtube. That shit is making me want to start a Youtube channel more than anything. Me and Maia are planning on doing that. It's gonna be fucking awesome!
About the #I'mHappy challenge. I have '#I'm' written on my wrist. Today I still don't know if I'll write the H and here's the reason why. I didn't feel exactly sad, or depressed. But I wasn't my bubbly self. (I don't think I'm that anymore to be honest, at least not when I'm on holiday :P). I was happy though, happier than I was a month ago. But not as happy as yesterday. But I think I'll write the H anyways. Because I wasn't THAT sad and not wanting to do anything. And I do want to do everything! Fuck me if I'm wrong (I've been using that expression a lot recently, not very apropriate since I'm wrong a lot of times...) but I'm seriously so excited for the 11th of september when I'll see Maia and FUCKING JAMES WHO I HAVEN'T SEEN FOR TWO WHOLE MONTHS HOLY SHIT I BET HE'S HOT!!! (i don't believe i wrote that either. i'm not even sorry...) And I'm so happy OMA I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY MAYBE IT'S BECAUSE I'M ON MY PERIOD AHAH
But seriously, I'm REALYYY happy.
By the way, what do you think about the new blog theme? Black and yellow and pikachu uh? Black and yellow always reminds me of bees and wasps, wich I'm terrified of. But since the cute little pikachu music player is down there, I guess it makes it alright. And pikachu because in the end this is an 'anime blog' and Pokémon is kinda of an anime? I don't know. Can you consider Pokémon and anime? OMA I'm so dumb... Anyways, and when I was 4 years old I absolutely LOVED Pokémon. I woke up earlier to watch that shit and I used to have a Pokémon T-shirt that my mum says that I loved. So yeah. Can you imagine cute 4-years-old Lora with her curly brown hair runing around to watch Pokémon? I didn't understand shit about it, I only liked the show because of the bad guys that disaperead into the sky in a hot air balloon and then there was a sparkle. But I didn't know that Pokémons where creatures that they captured with their pokéballs and I didn't their names. So maybe I wasn't that big of a Pokémon fan. #oops But recently I've been playing it on my phone with a gameboy emulator (I'm too poor to buy a DS). That's cool. I still don't know the names of the creatures. And I'm stuck in the middle of the game. I can't win the trainer and I can't find the pokémon that I need. So, basically, I'm screwed.
Anyways, I really hope that you like the new theme. I was scared that black would be too dark, but it all turned out well, the blog looks awesome. And black is my favourite colour so, it's all okay. Also, I'm sorry that the musics on the playlist are not by order of appearance on the blog, the site put the musics on shuffle for some reason, but I'm too lazy to go and make the playlist again. So, just enjoy the music.
Song of the day: Untitled (Can't Find The Words), by Eddplant (he's a youtuber). I love his voice so much from Chameleon Circuit but for some reason I'm only listening to his music now. His voice makes me so peaceful and happy and calm and just, it's amazing. And I now about the whole 'sex scandal' that involves him, but that doesn't mean I can't like his music, does it? I like his voice. It doesn't mean I like him.
Anyways, I'm off to write the H on my wrist.
Peace out dudes!
Lorac xx
PS-I will start writing NAR (not anime related) on the titles of the blog post, if it's not anime related. I'm sorry if anime it's what you're here for, but writing my day to a 'public' slash the shadows kind of works like a therapy for me, and makes me happy and not so heavy so, yeah, bear with me.
It doesn't seem like a month and something has passed since I wrote 'regularly' on my blog doesn't it? At least not for me. It kinda of seems like routine now. It's weird.
I haven't finished Code Geass yet. I'm sorry. But, in my defense, I've been busy with making my notebooks for back to school! I'm excited. I've finished my planner and my notebooks and all that shit. So I think I'm ready for back to school.
I've spent the whole day watching 'Becoming Youtube' by Benjamin Cook/ninebrassmonkeys on youtube. That shit is making me want to start a Youtube channel more than anything. Me and Maia are planning on doing that. It's gonna be fucking awesome!
About the #I'mHappy challenge. I have '#I'm' written on my wrist. Today I still don't know if I'll write the H and here's the reason why. I didn't feel exactly sad, or depressed. But I wasn't my bubbly self. (I don't think I'm that anymore to be honest, at least not when I'm on holiday :P). I was happy though, happier than I was a month ago. But not as happy as yesterday. But I think I'll write the H anyways. Because I wasn't THAT sad and not wanting to do anything. And I do want to do everything! Fuck me if I'm wrong (I've been using that expression a lot recently, not very apropriate since I'm wrong a lot of times...) but I'm seriously so excited for the 11th of september when I'll see Maia and FUCKING JAMES WHO I HAVEN'T SEEN FOR TWO WHOLE MONTHS HOLY SHIT I BET HE'S HOT!!! (i don't believe i wrote that either. i'm not even sorry...) And I'm so happy OMA I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY MAYBE IT'S BECAUSE I'M ON MY PERIOD AHAH
But seriously, I'm REALYYY happy.
By the way, what do you think about the new blog theme? Black and yellow and pikachu uh? Black and yellow always reminds me of bees and wasps, wich I'm terrified of. But since the cute little pikachu music player is down there, I guess it makes it alright. And pikachu because in the end this is an 'anime blog' and Pokémon is kinda of an anime? I don't know. Can you consider Pokémon and anime? OMA I'm so dumb... Anyways, and when I was 4 years old I absolutely LOVED Pokémon. I woke up earlier to watch that shit and I used to have a Pokémon T-shirt that my mum says that I loved. So yeah. Can you imagine cute 4-years-old Lora with her curly brown hair runing around to watch Pokémon? I didn't understand shit about it, I only liked the show because of the bad guys that disaperead into the sky in a hot air balloon and then there was a sparkle. But I didn't know that Pokémons where creatures that they captured with their pokéballs and I didn't their names. So maybe I wasn't that big of a Pokémon fan. #oops But recently I've been playing it on my phone with a gameboy emulator (I'm too poor to buy a DS). That's cool. I still don't know the names of the creatures. And I'm stuck in the middle of the game. I can't win the trainer and I can't find the pokémon that I need. So, basically, I'm screwed.
Anyways, I really hope that you like the new theme. I was scared that black would be too dark, but it all turned out well, the blog looks awesome. And black is my favourite colour so, it's all okay. Also, I'm sorry that the musics on the playlist are not by order of appearance on the blog, the site put the musics on shuffle for some reason, but I'm too lazy to go and make the playlist again. So, just enjoy the music.
Song of the day: Untitled (Can't Find The Words), by Eddplant (he's a youtuber). I love his voice so much from Chameleon Circuit but for some reason I'm only listening to his music now. His voice makes me so peaceful and happy and calm and just, it's amazing. And I now about the whole 'sex scandal' that involves him, but that doesn't mean I can't like his music, does it? I like his voice. It doesn't mean I like him.
Anyways, I'm off to write the H on my wrist.
Peace out dudes!
Lorac xx
PS-I will start writing NAR (not anime related) on the titles of the blog post, if it's not anime related. I'm sorry if anime it's what you're here for, but writing my day to a 'public' slash the shadows kind of works like a therapy for me, and makes me happy and not so heavy so, yeah, bear with me.
Sunday, August 31, 2014
Updates, anime, self-harm, Youtube and randomness
Hey!
It's been a while since I clicked the 'new post' button, hasn't it? I mean, more than a month has passed since the last post. I did not forget about my blog, of course I didn't, I thought about it every single fucking day but I did not feel in the mood to write something, specially after my last post. Talking about that. I think that I'm not that sad anymore. Youtube sure has helped. So did anime and gaming. Have I told you that I have a new computer? No? Well, his name is Fred and he's a Toshiba and he has windows 7 and I'm so happy. This used to be my old computer but my dad needed it to do some work so about two and a half years ago we changed computers. And now I finally have it back! Yay! I now have two computers, not that I'm complaining. I recieved Fred on my birthday, wich was on the 19th of August. My uncle and aunt were over, Maia and Hanna, my friend from the north were over, and we spent the afternoon playing Super Mario Bros on my wii. It was a good day.
Talking about good, well, this is not exactly 'good', but meh. I finally know my class. I'm in a class with more 28 people that I have no fucking clue who they are, and the girl that I mentioned on my last post that doesn't like 5SOS. Well, this should be fun, right? At least she likes All Time Low. And, funny fact, there's only six girls (including me and Jess (the girl that dislikes 5SOS)) on a 30-students class. Great!
More things.
Fred has over two hundred GB of memory, wich means I can download Team Fortress 2. I did. I played it. I kept dying. You need money to buy more guns. I do not have money. So basically, I'm screwed. But it's fun. I played it with James and he killed me more than fifty times. I killed him twice. I'm proud of myself!
I didn't mention this on my last post but I HAVE A FUCKING ELECTRIC GUITAR!!! I called her Maia (yep, she has the same name as my best friend :P) and she's so beautiful. I have her since before my last post. I've learned a bunch of 5SOS musics (just the intro though) and I'm really proud of myself because I can play 'Come as you are' by Nirvana on the guitar. Yey! And I'm learning 'Sweet child o'mine' (or whatever that music is called, I'm too lazy to go and check) by Guns 'n Roses (I don't know how to write the name of the band either, I'm sorry) and AERGRFDNKVBNEJKD that shit is hard.
I'm making my notebooks that I'm going to use for school more pretty by painting them. I'm even doing a planner. You can say that I'm good at arts and crafts. Maybe, I don't know, but I do like DIY's so, yeah, I'm having fun.
I recieved a bunch of books for my birthday, and I read the fourth book of The Giver and OMFA that was adjsiklngv and now I'm reading 'Beautiful Creatures' and I'm falling in love with that shit. The movie is one of my all time favourites and there's three more books that I need to buy, oma. I have a lot of other books that I recieved, I'll keep you updated while I'm reading them. This can also be a book review blog. Yey.
Talking about anime, I'm on the 19th episode of the seconds season of Code Geass (I know, I'm still watching Code Geass, what a loser, but I'm going to watch Free! next, so that's a motivation) and OMA I DO NOT LIKE LELOUCH HE'S BECOMING OVERWHELMED BY HIS POWER AND C.C. LOST HER MEMORY AND IT'S NOT FUNNY ANYMORE BECAUSE WE DON'T GET HER SASSY REMARKS ANYMORE NOW SHE'S SCARED OF LELOUCH, WHO IS A SWEETHEART BUT NOW NUNALLY IS DEAD AND SUZAKI IS A BITCH, I DON'T REALLY KNOW WHY, BUT HE HIS, AND I DO NOT LIKE ROLO BECAUSE HE WANTS TO KILL EVERYONE AND LELOUCH ALSO THINKS HE CAN KILL EVERYONE AND CAN WE TALK ABOUT THE FACT THAT SHIRLEY DIED?!?!?! I MEAN WHYY?!
I'm good now, I've let all my anger out, I'm okay now.
Life is good. Life is amazing.
My parents want to get a divorce.
You want to know my opinion? I do want them to get a divorce. It will be the best for all of us. My parents spend their days yelling at each other and if me and my mum just moved out it would be better. But my dad is not okay and he needs someone. And I cannot be that someone because I do not know how to deal with that kind of stuff. And to be honest, I do not want to go throught the hassle of moving out again because my fandom wall would have to be destroyed and I do not want that. But I don't think they will go through with that idea. Yeah, maybe things won't change. As long as I have anime and music and Youtube, life's good.
One more thing. Yesterday I watched the 'For people who self harm' Lukas' video, and that inspired me to do something. So the #CutCakeNotWrists challenge is when you write the sentence #CutCake in the place where you usually self-harm, through a week, a letter for week. You only write a letter if you do not self harm during that day. If you manage to write the sentence, after that first week withouth self-harming, you can treat yourself with some cake or anything else you enjoy, like a day at the spa (idk). Here's the link of the video, he explains things better than me. ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0umb_WksfnU ) Luke is a great youtuber, by the way, and you should totally check his channel. Back to the idea. I never self-harm, I'm too much of a chicken to do it, I can barely tolerate pain. But I'm a pretty dark person sometimes. So I thought in making my own version of the #CutCake challenge. It's all pretty much the same, but instead of writing 'cut cake' I'm going to write 'I'm happy' every day that I spend without feeling extremely sad or depressed or without wanting to do anything. In the end, I'm going to bake myself a microwave cake. Yey! It makes more sense to me to have written on my wrist 'I'm happy' than 'Cut Cake' since my problem is more related to happiness and feelings than the whole self-harm thing. I've started yesterday, I already have the hashtag done, at night I will write the 'I' if I manage to survive the day.
(update from future lora (26/7/2015): this is dumb and i realize it now. that's not how feeling work, you can't control them like like that. but i thought i could, and i was sorta desperate so, bare with my old self alright? okay, bai)
This was long. I'm going to meet my new class mates in eleven days. My school starts in fifteen days. I'm addicted to watching back to school hauls. I think I may have a problem Houston (waddup movie reference! (ahah I never even watched that movie (I don't even know what movie this belongs to :P)))
anyways.
Song of the day: (there will be five, one for each week that I'v been away and another because I can't choose just four)
Fun, by Troye Sivan OMFA I'M SO FUCKING ADDICTED TO THE TRXYE EP OMFA I CAN'T EVEN BEGIN TO EVEN I'M SO PROUD OF MY BOY!
Goodnight Moon, by Go Radio. It's such a great song, go listen to it.
Dance Floor Anthem (AKA I Don't Wanna Be In Love (idk the name of the song, but if you search any of these on youtube or spotify (if you're like me and you don't like music videos for some weird reason :P), you should find the song.), by Good Charlotte. THAT HAS TO BE MY FAVOURITE SONG OF ALL TIME I LOVE IT SO MUCH OMA OMA OMA
Young Volcanos, by Fall Out Boy because WE ARE WILD WE ARE LIKE YOUNG VOLCANOS! (I have that on my fandom wall by the way.)
Stuck On You, by New Politics IT'S BEAUTIFUL, THERE'S NO WORDS TO DESCRIBE IT, GO LISTEN TO IT!
And last but not least.
The Promise, by one of my favourite girl youtubers, Emma Blackery. It's such a beautiful and meaningful song and I love the music video (I opened an exception for this one because it's truly beautiful okay? okay.) and ASDFGN THE FEELS. Also, Emma reminds me of Hayley Williams for some reason. Am I the only one? Yes? Okay then.
I'm gonna go now. Keep smiling, like Kimmi says (I love her) (she's a youtuber btw) (youtube.com/kimmitalks) (it's amazing) (check it out) (okay there's way to many parenthesis in this post now)
Peace out dudes!
Lorac xx
PS-My relationship with Rin is still strong and he has helped me a lot. So the Lin ship is still on!
PSS-I'm going to add a player on top on the blog page with all the songs of the day that I've ever mentioned so it's easier for you to listen to them. And you can just open my blog to just listen to the playlist because it's just great music! :D
kay baii
It's been a while since I clicked the 'new post' button, hasn't it? I mean, more than a month has passed since the last post. I did not forget about my blog, of course I didn't, I thought about it every single fucking day but I did not feel in the mood to write something, specially after my last post. Talking about that. I think that I'm not that sad anymore. Youtube sure has helped. So did anime and gaming. Have I told you that I have a new computer? No? Well, his name is Fred and he's a Toshiba and he has windows 7 and I'm so happy. This used to be my old computer but my dad needed it to do some work so about two and a half years ago we changed computers. And now I finally have it back! Yay! I now have two computers, not that I'm complaining. I recieved Fred on my birthday, wich was on the 19th of August. My uncle and aunt were over, Maia and Hanna, my friend from the north were over, and we spent the afternoon playing Super Mario Bros on my wii. It was a good day.
Talking about good, well, this is not exactly 'good', but meh. I finally know my class. I'm in a class with more 28 people that I have no fucking clue who they are, and the girl that I mentioned on my last post that doesn't like 5SOS. Well, this should be fun, right? At least she likes All Time Low. And, funny fact, there's only six girls (including me and Jess (the girl that dislikes 5SOS)) on a 30-students class. Great!
More things.
Fred has over two hundred GB of memory, wich means I can download Team Fortress 2. I did. I played it. I kept dying. You need money to buy more guns. I do not have money. So basically, I'm screwed. But it's fun. I played it with James and he killed me more than fifty times. I killed him twice. I'm proud of myself!
I didn't mention this on my last post but I HAVE A FUCKING ELECTRIC GUITAR!!! I called her Maia (yep, she has the same name as my best friend :P) and she's so beautiful. I have her since before my last post. I've learned a bunch of 5SOS musics (just the intro though) and I'm really proud of myself because I can play 'Come as you are' by Nirvana on the guitar. Yey! And I'm learning 'Sweet child o'mine' (or whatever that music is called, I'm too lazy to go and check) by Guns 'n Roses (I don't know how to write the name of the band either, I'm sorry) and AERGRFDNKVBNEJKD that shit is hard.
I'm making my notebooks that I'm going to use for school more pretty by painting them. I'm even doing a planner. You can say that I'm good at arts and crafts. Maybe, I don't know, but I do like DIY's so, yeah, I'm having fun.
I recieved a bunch of books for my birthday, and I read the fourth book of The Giver and OMFA that was adjsiklngv and now I'm reading 'Beautiful Creatures' and I'm falling in love with that shit. The movie is one of my all time favourites and there's three more books that I need to buy, oma. I have a lot of other books that I recieved, I'll keep you updated while I'm reading them. This can also be a book review blog. Yey.
Talking about anime, I'm on the 19th episode of the seconds season of Code Geass (I know, I'm still watching Code Geass, what a loser, but I'm going to watch Free! next, so that's a motivation) and OMA I DO NOT LIKE LELOUCH HE'S BECOMING OVERWHELMED BY HIS POWER AND C.C. LOST HER MEMORY AND IT'S NOT FUNNY ANYMORE BECAUSE WE DON'T GET HER SASSY REMARKS ANYMORE NOW SHE'S SCARED OF LELOUCH, WHO IS A SWEETHEART BUT NOW NUNALLY IS DEAD AND SUZAKI IS A BITCH, I DON'T REALLY KNOW WHY, BUT HE HIS, AND I DO NOT LIKE ROLO BECAUSE HE WANTS TO KILL EVERYONE AND LELOUCH ALSO THINKS HE CAN KILL EVERYONE AND CAN WE TALK ABOUT THE FACT THAT SHIRLEY DIED?!?!?! I MEAN WHYY?!
I'm good now, I've let all my anger out, I'm okay now.
Life is good. Life is amazing.
My parents want to get a divorce.
You want to know my opinion? I do want them to get a divorce. It will be the best for all of us. My parents spend their days yelling at each other and if me and my mum just moved out it would be better. But my dad is not okay and he needs someone. And I cannot be that someone because I do not know how to deal with that kind of stuff. And to be honest, I do not want to go throught the hassle of moving out again because my fandom wall would have to be destroyed and I do not want that. But I don't think they will go through with that idea. Yeah, maybe things won't change. As long as I have anime and music and Youtube, life's good.
One more thing. Yesterday I watched the 'For people who self harm' Lukas' video, and that inspired me to do something. So the #CutCakeNotWrists challenge is when you write the sentence #CutCake in the place where you usually self-harm, through a week, a letter for week. You only write a letter if you do not self harm during that day. If you manage to write the sentence, after that first week withouth self-harming, you can treat yourself with some cake or anything else you enjoy, like a day at the spa (idk). Here's the link of the video, he explains things better than me. ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0umb_WksfnU ) Luke is a great youtuber, by the way, and you should totally check his channel. Back to the idea. I never self-harm, I'm too much of a chicken to do it, I can barely tolerate pain. But I'm a pretty dark person sometimes. So I thought in making my own version of the #CutCake challenge. It's all pretty much the same, but instead of writing 'cut cake' I'm going to write 'I'm happy' every day that I spend without feeling extremely sad or depressed or without wanting to do anything. In the end, I'm going to bake myself a microwave cake. Yey! It makes more sense to me to have written on my wrist 'I'm happy' than 'Cut Cake' since my problem is more related to happiness and feelings than the whole self-harm thing. I've started yesterday, I already have the hashtag done, at night I will write the 'I' if I manage to survive the day.
(update from future lora (26/7/2015): this is dumb and i realize it now. that's not how feeling work, you can't control them like like that. but i thought i could, and i was sorta desperate so, bare with my old self alright? okay, bai)
This was long. I'm going to meet my new class mates in eleven days. My school starts in fifteen days. I'm addicted to watching back to school hauls. I think I may have a problem Houston (waddup movie reference! (ahah I never even watched that movie (I don't even know what movie this belongs to :P)))
anyways.
Song of the day: (there will be five, one for each week that I'v been away and another because I can't choose just four)
Fun, by Troye Sivan OMFA I'M SO FUCKING ADDICTED TO THE TRXYE EP OMFA I CAN'T EVEN BEGIN TO EVEN I'M SO PROUD OF MY BOY!
Goodnight Moon, by Go Radio. It's such a great song, go listen to it.
Dance Floor Anthem (AKA I Don't Wanna Be In Love (idk the name of the song, but if you search any of these on youtube or spotify (if you're like me and you don't like music videos for some weird reason :P), you should find the song.), by Good Charlotte. THAT HAS TO BE MY FAVOURITE SONG OF ALL TIME I LOVE IT SO MUCH OMA OMA OMA
Young Volcanos, by Fall Out Boy because WE ARE WILD WE ARE LIKE YOUNG VOLCANOS! (I have that on my fandom wall by the way.)
Stuck On You, by New Politics IT'S BEAUTIFUL, THERE'S NO WORDS TO DESCRIBE IT, GO LISTEN TO IT!
And last but not least.
The Promise, by one of my favourite girl youtubers, Emma Blackery. It's such a beautiful and meaningful song and I love the music video (I opened an exception for this one because it's truly beautiful okay? okay.) and ASDFGN THE FEELS. Also, Emma reminds me of Hayley Williams for some reason. Am I the only one? Yes? Okay then.
I'm gonna go now. Keep smiling, like Kimmi says (I love her) (she's a youtuber btw) (youtube.com/kimmitalks) (it's amazing) (check it out) (okay there's way to many parenthesis in this post now)
Peace out dudes!
Lorac xx
PS-My relationship with Rin is still strong and he has helped me a lot. So the Lin ship is still on!
PSS-I'm going to add a player on top on the blog page with all the songs of the day that I've ever mentioned so it's easier for you to listen to them. And you can just open my blog to just listen to the playlist because it's just great music! :D
kay baii
Wednesday, July 23, 2014
Not anime related
Hey!
First of all, I'm sorry I haven't posted for two weeks. I haven't been feeling that good lately. And I don't mean that I'm ill. I mean on a mentally level. I think I'm losing my mind. And I'm not joking. I'm not on my period and I'm emotional, and I get sad and scared of the future and sometimes I just want to sleep so that I don't have to feel.
Self-esteem? Never heard of that. I eat more and more to drown my "mind pain".
I've been watching anime, I've even started the second season of Code Geass and I showed Maia the first episode of Death Note. She says she'll keep watching it. So I guess I should be happy.
But... I don't know? I mean, what's the meaning of all of this? Of the happiness? We're all going to die in the end...
I visited my new school a few days ago and reality hit me. I'm 15, I'm going to be part of the new guys on a school that has students older then 18... And I'm going to be completely alone in a class because none of my friends chose the same subjects as me... And I'm scared. What if I can't go and talk to the people in my new class? How do you even make friends? I don't know, I don't remember. I've never felt so alone but at the same time I know that Maia is going through the same because, as me, she is going to a different course than any of our other friends. And she's even more social-awkward than me. I'm honestly scared of people. Of their judgements. I know you shouldn't care about that but I mean, I'm going to have to stick with these new people for (hopefully) three years, I think that they should like me for this whole class thing to work. And I want to meet new people, to start a new journey but I'm scared. I'm so scared.
And since the finalists trip (wich was about a month ago) and the One Direction concert, where I cried my eyes out, I feel like I don't have a purpose anymore. Nothing to wait for. I have the beggining of classes but, do I really want them to start?
And today should be a happy day because 1D is 4 years old and Troye released Happy Little Pill, wich is making me cry of happiness because of how far he has gotten. And then there's A Film For Ella, the new JacksGap video, and I've cried so much because of that hug and I'm an emotional wreck and I just want someone to hug me forever and tell me that everything is going to be alright but it won't because people are not happy, I'm not happy and I don't know what to do...
Maia spent a night here and we had a sleepover and I was able to laugh and be happy but now... And now what? What do I do? Do I just... Stay here? Watch anime? Talk to James and cry because I don't understand anything and I'm feeling guilty because I like 5SOS and there's this girl who likes the same kind of music as me and she said she doesn't like 5SOS and I'm feeling really conflictuated here because I don't know what to do because I keep thinking "wow she's so cool" and now she doesn't like 5SOS and I'm just a failure at life because I'm so easily messed up by just that girl and I just wish I could erase that part of me who admires her and who wants to be her friend because I hate loving someone to that point. It makes me vulnerable.
I still don't understand what I feel about James and I don't know.
I just want a happy little pill to take me away and dry my eyes and bring colour and happiness to my skies because I'm so sad and I'm a mess and I hate being a mess...
And in a way I kinda want to meet those new people at my new school but I don't want to...
And now I'm crying like a mad dog and it's late and I should go...
Song of the day: Happy Little Pill, by Troye Sivan.
Peace out dudes!
Lorac xx
First of all, I'm sorry I haven't posted for two weeks. I haven't been feeling that good lately. And I don't mean that I'm ill. I mean on a mentally level. I think I'm losing my mind. And I'm not joking. I'm not on my period and I'm emotional, and I get sad and scared of the future and sometimes I just want to sleep so that I don't have to feel.
Self-esteem? Never heard of that. I eat more and more to drown my "mind pain".
I've been watching anime, I've even started the second season of Code Geass and I showed Maia the first episode of Death Note. She says she'll keep watching it. So I guess I should be happy.
But... I don't know? I mean, what's the meaning of all of this? Of the happiness? We're all going to die in the end...
I visited my new school a few days ago and reality hit me. I'm 15, I'm going to be part of the new guys on a school that has students older then 18... And I'm going to be completely alone in a class because none of my friends chose the same subjects as me... And I'm scared. What if I can't go and talk to the people in my new class? How do you even make friends? I don't know, I don't remember. I've never felt so alone but at the same time I know that Maia is going through the same because, as me, she is going to a different course than any of our other friends. And she's even more social-awkward than me. I'm honestly scared of people. Of their judgements. I know you shouldn't care about that but I mean, I'm going to have to stick with these new people for (hopefully) three years, I think that they should like me for this whole class thing to work. And I want to meet new people, to start a new journey but I'm scared. I'm so scared.
And since the finalists trip (wich was about a month ago) and the One Direction concert, where I cried my eyes out, I feel like I don't have a purpose anymore. Nothing to wait for. I have the beggining of classes but, do I really want them to start?
And today should be a happy day because 1D is 4 years old and Troye released Happy Little Pill, wich is making me cry of happiness because of how far he has gotten. And then there's A Film For Ella, the new JacksGap video, and I've cried so much because of that hug and I'm an emotional wreck and I just want someone to hug me forever and tell me that everything is going to be alright but it won't because people are not happy, I'm not happy and I don't know what to do...
Maia spent a night here and we had a sleepover and I was able to laugh and be happy but now... And now what? What do I do? Do I just... Stay here? Watch anime? Talk to James and cry because I don't understand anything and I'm feeling guilty because I like 5SOS and there's this girl who likes the same kind of music as me and she said she doesn't like 5SOS and I'm feeling really conflictuated here because I don't know what to do because I keep thinking "wow she's so cool" and now she doesn't like 5SOS and I'm just a failure at life because I'm so easily messed up by just that girl and I just wish I could erase that part of me who admires her and who wants to be her friend because I hate loving someone to that point. It makes me vulnerable.
I still don't understand what I feel about James and I don't know.
I just want a happy little pill to take me away and dry my eyes and bring colour and happiness to my skies because I'm so sad and I'm a mess and I hate being a mess...
And in a way I kinda want to meet those new people at my new school but I don't want to...
And now I'm crying like a mad dog and it's late and I should go...
Song of the day: Happy Little Pill, by Troye Sivan.
Peace out dudes!
Lorac xx
Tuesday, July 15, 2014
A big post because I've been gone for too long
Hey!
This past four days have been a rollercoaster of emotions. I'm sorry for not posting anything friday and yesterday, but things have been a little weird. First of all, the One Direction concert.
Oh my fucking angel, that thing was phenomenal and I can't believe I got to watch their concert because it was truly amazing. I cried during the first quarter of the concert, I didn't think I would to be honest, because I never cry. But I was too happy because I had been waiting for the concert since September and I was finally at the stadium, getting ready for the concert.
And then, BAM!, Raphael Gomes (AKA RaphaBlueBerry on Youtube) was there! One of the girls that was with us started saying "Ashton, Ashton, Ashton" (because aparently Raphael reminded her of Ashton from 5SOS...) and when I looked IT WAS RAPHAEL FUCKING GOMES!!! And then I started crying and I was like, "I know you, you're a Youtuber" and I cried even more and he was like "Aww" and then he hugged me and he asked my name and he took a picture with me and ASDFGGHHJKL MY FEELINGS!!! I never actually believed I would ever get to meet the people I watch on my computer's screen, and then he was in front of me and I EVEN FORGOT HIS FUCKING NAME!!! wut? I was too shocked and happy and I look horrible on that picture but then on twitter he said that I looked too cute and I fangirled so hard because ASDFGHJKJHGFDSDFGHJ THE FEELS!!! And after a BIG while 1D finally came on stage after THREE FUCKING HOURS of waitng and I cried and I was like "Lorac, get your shit together! C'mon!" And I was finally able to control myself and I loved the concert!!!
And after the concert, my life got even better because I BOUGHT A FUCKING 1D POSTER AND A FUCKING 5SOS T-SHIRT OH MY ANGEL BAND MERCH MAKES ME HAPPY AND ASDFGHJK that day was perfect and my t-shirt is beautiful and I currently have the One Direction boys looking at me while I'm writing this and Louis looks like he's confused. It's like he's saying "What the fuck are you doing, girl, get a life for fuck's sake!" YOU KNOW WHAT LOUIS??? I'M GONNA BE A REBEL AND I WON'T GET A LIFE AND I'LL SPEND THE REST OF MY SUMMER SITTING ON MY BED WRITING BLOG POSTS AND WATCHING ANIME!!! In yo' face BIATCH!
Anyways, talking about anime, I tried to watch a couple of Code Geass episodes while I was on the bus BECAUSE THEY HAVE FUCKING WI-FI THERE AND IT'S FUCKING GOOD!!! But I couldn't, because bus rides make me sleepy and I just wanted to listen to music and sleep. I didn't sleep though, I just listened to music :P I think I watched one episode, I'm not sure though, I don't even know what was the last episode I watched.
Guys, I didn't thought I would miss the blog so much! I thought about asking my friend to let me use her computer to write a quick thing but I didn't want to bother her and then she would ask for my blog, and I want to keep it in the shadows... :D
Anyways, this morning I returned to my school to sign the papers that would make me go into another shcool! Yey! I saw James!!! Double YEY!!! But seriously now, I'm getting a little worried because my body reacted in a weird way when I saw him because my heart started beating too fast and I started to shake and I had to hug myself so I wouldn't melt to the ground because ASDFGHJK I don't know what's going on with me. And then we had a little moment where we laughed because he was leaving the room but our spanish teacher said "Where do you think you're going? Come here and let me kiss you!!!"(waddup 1D reference! (waddup iiSuperWomanii reference!!) and he turned around and hugged her and the he sat on the table across mine and he looked and me and we started laughing but then I think we laughed more than we should and I keep thinking there was a hiding meaning behind our laughter session and ASSDFGHJKHGFDSASDFGHOJEHBSDCFVOPIJHFBWNJKSCODIJHB I just wanna sleep because I don't like to feel this because I know I'm gonna get hurt but AAARRRGGGHHHH
TBH, before today, I was feeling really numb because of the concert, because it had been the date I was looking forward to this whole time and now it's over and it's like I don't have a purpose anymore. I have no plans for the future, nothing is settled and I don't know, I don't like living without something to look forward to... I don't know. But today made me feel something, so I guess that's alright.
I'm sorry this is so big and I'm sorry it has nothing to do with anime, and I'm sorry about all the fangirling and girly feelings talk, but since there's only the shadows out there, I believe no one will actually care. Ahh, I've missed this place c:
Oh! And I finally listened to the 5SOS album and OMA IT'S SO GOOD!!! I think I have a thing for Michael. I think I'm a whore because I have a thing for Michael, and Louis, and Rin, and Isaac, and Jack and yeah, I don't care if they're years older or living miles away or if they're anime characters or fictional persons, I don't care! They're too perfect for me.
PS-Yesterday I was up 'till three in the morning scrolling through the 5 Seconds Of Summer tumblr tag and listening to their new album, so sorry for any mistakes, I barely slept and I'm tired.
PPS-5SOS are my new obsession, I'm not even sorry.
Song of the day: There will be two songs because I have been gone for too long. Numb, by Likin Park, for obvious reasons and because LP is awesome!!! And English Love Affair, by 5 Seconds Of Summer, because I think it's one of my favorites from the album so... YEAH!!!
Peace out dudes!
Lorac xx
This past four days have been a rollercoaster of emotions. I'm sorry for not posting anything friday and yesterday, but things have been a little weird. First of all, the One Direction concert.
Oh my fucking angel, that thing was phenomenal and I can't believe I got to watch their concert because it was truly amazing. I cried during the first quarter of the concert, I didn't think I would to be honest, because I never cry. But I was too happy because I had been waiting for the concert since September and I was finally at the stadium, getting ready for the concert.
And then, BAM!, Raphael Gomes (AKA RaphaBlueBerry on Youtube) was there! One of the girls that was with us started saying "Ashton, Ashton, Ashton" (because aparently Raphael reminded her of Ashton from 5SOS...) and when I looked IT WAS RAPHAEL FUCKING GOMES!!! And then I started crying and I was like, "I know you, you're a Youtuber" and I cried even more and he was like "Aww" and then he hugged me and he asked my name and he took a picture with me and ASDFGGHHJKL MY FEELINGS!!! I never actually believed I would ever get to meet the people I watch on my computer's screen, and then he was in front of me and I EVEN FORGOT HIS FUCKING NAME!!! wut? I was too shocked and happy and I look horrible on that picture but then on twitter he said that I looked too cute and I fangirled so hard because ASDFGHJKJHGFDSDFGHJ THE FEELS!!! And after a BIG while 1D finally came on stage after THREE FUCKING HOURS of waitng and I cried and I was like "Lorac, get your shit together! C'mon!" And I was finally able to control myself and I loved the concert!!!
And after the concert, my life got even better because I BOUGHT A FUCKING 1D POSTER AND A FUCKING 5SOS T-SHIRT OH MY ANGEL BAND MERCH MAKES ME HAPPY AND ASDFGHJK that day was perfect and my t-shirt is beautiful and I currently have the One Direction boys looking at me while I'm writing this and Louis looks like he's confused. It's like he's saying "What the fuck are you doing, girl, get a life for fuck's sake!" YOU KNOW WHAT LOUIS??? I'M GONNA BE A REBEL AND I WON'T GET A LIFE AND I'LL SPEND THE REST OF MY SUMMER SITTING ON MY BED WRITING BLOG POSTS AND WATCHING ANIME!!! In yo' face BIATCH!
Anyways, talking about anime, I tried to watch a couple of Code Geass episodes while I was on the bus BECAUSE THEY HAVE FUCKING WI-FI THERE AND IT'S FUCKING GOOD!!! But I couldn't, because bus rides make me sleepy and I just wanted to listen to music and sleep. I didn't sleep though, I just listened to music :P I think I watched one episode, I'm not sure though, I don't even know what was the last episode I watched.
Guys, I didn't thought I would miss the blog so much! I thought about asking my friend to let me use her computer to write a quick thing but I didn't want to bother her and then she would ask for my blog, and I want to keep it in the shadows... :D
Anyways, this morning I returned to my school to sign the papers that would make me go into another shcool! Yey! I saw James!!! Double YEY!!! But seriously now, I'm getting a little worried because my body reacted in a weird way when I saw him because my heart started beating too fast and I started to shake and I had to hug myself so I wouldn't melt to the ground because ASDFGHJK I don't know what's going on with me. And then we had a little moment where we laughed because he was leaving the room but our spanish teacher said "Where do you think you're going? Come here and let me kiss you!!!"(waddup 1D reference! (waddup iiSuperWomanii reference!!) and he turned around and hugged her and the he sat on the table across mine and he looked and me and we started laughing but then I think we laughed more than we should and I keep thinking there was a hiding meaning behind our laughter session and ASSDFGHJKHGFDSASDFGHOJEHBSDCFVOPIJHFBWNJKSCODIJHB I just wanna sleep because I don't like to feel this because I know I'm gonna get hurt but AAARRRGGGHHHH
TBH, before today, I was feeling really numb because of the concert, because it had been the date I was looking forward to this whole time and now it's over and it's like I don't have a purpose anymore. I have no plans for the future, nothing is settled and I don't know, I don't like living without something to look forward to... I don't know. But today made me feel something, so I guess that's alright.
I'm sorry this is so big and I'm sorry it has nothing to do with anime, and I'm sorry about all the fangirling and girly feelings talk, but since there's only the shadows out there, I believe no one will actually care. Ahh, I've missed this place c:
Oh! And I finally listened to the 5SOS album and OMA IT'S SO GOOD!!! I think I have a thing for Michael. I think I'm a whore because I have a thing for Michael, and Louis, and Rin, and Isaac, and Jack and yeah, I don't care if they're years older or living miles away or if they're anime characters or fictional persons, I don't care! They're too perfect for me.
PS-Yesterday I was up 'till three in the morning scrolling through the 5 Seconds Of Summer tumblr tag and listening to their new album, so sorry for any mistakes, I barely slept and I'm tired.
PPS-5SOS are my new obsession, I'm not even sorry.
Song of the day: There will be two songs because I have been gone for too long. Numb, by Likin Park, for obvious reasons and because LP is awesome!!! And English Love Affair, by 5 Seconds Of Summer, because I think it's one of my favorites from the album so... YEAH!!!
Peace out dudes!
Lorac xx
Thursday, July 10, 2014
I hate Lelouch!
Hey!
EPISODE 14 CODE GEASS SPOILERS LEAVE IF YOU HAVEN'T WATCH THAT YET!
Now, that I have your attention, no, I do not hate Lelouch, he has purple eyes and he's the most caring person ever, of course I don't hate him!
But that doesn't mean I have to like his actions, does it?
I've just watched episode 14 and can I just say ARGHH!!! I mean, Mao, CC, Shirley, and that woman with purple hair (not Cornelia, but I can't remember her name) that was shot by Shirley and found by one of the Dark Knights near the rocks and then, of course, LELOUCH USED HIS FUCKING GEASS POWER TO MAKE SHIRLEY FORGET EVERYTHING ABOU HIM WHY?!?! THEY WERE SO PERFECT AND THEY KISSED AND ARGGGHHHH SHIPPING FRUSTRATION RIGHT HERE GUYS!!!
Also, I'm getting worried because I think I've watched episode 14 without watching the 13th, which is weird, but it might have just happened... Either ways, I'm just going to re-watch episode 13 now so...
Also, this post is going to be short because I really have to watch the rest of Code Geass now because Saturday I'm going to the North to go and watch THE ONE DIRECTION CONCERT I'M SO EXCITED OH MY ANGEL!!! Okay, I've fangirled enough :D Anyways, the concert is only on the 13th, but I'm going to spend a couple of days at my friend's house, so there won't be any updates Saturday or Sunday, and probably not Monday either so... Soree. But I mean, I won't get to watch anime, so I also loose...
Update: I discovered I haven't actually watched episode 13... My bad but tbh, I actually understood most of the 14th episode so... No worries. And it the 13th one happens to be the episode I managed to download so I can watch it right now without having to wait for it to load :D
I'm gonna go now...
PS-I cried when I found out that Lelouch made Shirley forget about him so you can see that I'm definitely not okay.
PPS-Tomorrow my dad's taking me to the city to take pictures for my new school card. I'm not excited at all.
PPPS-Sometimes I wonder why do I write to someone, when there's definitely no one reading this because the blog is in the shadows...
Song of the day: In My Veins, by Andrew Belle. Shoutout to every Castle fans out there, this song is for you! (I'm doing it again, damn Lorac! There's no one there for fuck's sake!)
EPISODE 14 CODE GEASS SPOILERS LEAVE IF YOU HAVEN'T WATCH THAT YET!
Now, that I have your attention, no, I do not hate Lelouch, he has purple eyes and he's the most caring person ever, of course I don't hate him!
But that doesn't mean I have to like his actions, does it?
I've just watched episode 14 and can I just say ARGHH!!! I mean, Mao, CC, Shirley, and that woman with purple hair (not Cornelia, but I can't remember her name) that was shot by Shirley and found by one of the Dark Knights near the rocks and then, of course, LELOUCH USED HIS FUCKING GEASS POWER TO MAKE SHIRLEY FORGET EVERYTHING ABOU HIM WHY?!?! THEY WERE SO PERFECT AND THEY KISSED AND ARGGGHHHH SHIPPING FRUSTRATION RIGHT HERE GUYS!!!
Also, I'm getting worried because I think I've watched episode 14 without watching the 13th, which is weird, but it might have just happened... Either ways, I'm just going to re-watch episode 13 now so...
Also, this post is going to be short because I really have to watch the rest of Code Geass now because Saturday I'm going to the North to go and watch THE ONE DIRECTION CONCERT I'M SO EXCITED OH MY ANGEL!!! Okay, I've fangirled enough :D Anyways, the concert is only on the 13th, but I'm going to spend a couple of days at my friend's house, so there won't be any updates Saturday or Sunday, and probably not Monday either so... Soree. But I mean, I won't get to watch anime, so I also loose...
Update: I discovered I haven't actually watched episode 13... My bad but tbh, I actually understood most of the 14th episode so... No worries. And it the 13th one happens to be the episode I managed to download so I can watch it right now without having to wait for it to load :D
I'm gonna go now...
PS-I cried when I found out that Lelouch made Shirley forget about him so you can see that I'm definitely not okay.
PPS-Tomorrow my dad's taking me to the city to take pictures for my new school card. I'm not excited at all.
PPPS-Sometimes I wonder why do I write to someone, when there's definitely no one reading this because the blog is in the shadows...
Song of the day: In My Veins, by Andrew Belle. Shoutout to every Castle fans out there, this song is for you! (I'm doing it again, damn Lorac! There's no one there for fuck's sake!)
Wednesday, July 9, 2014
Boredom
Hey!
So, I'm still watching Code Geass (yey for me) and I'm actually loving it! The episodes are getting better and the story is getting awesome and it's just ARGH I wanna know if he can save Japan! I'm excited.
Today I've watched Thor, the second movie, and I'm even more sad because (SPOILER) Loki died. I-a-WHY? But he died as a hero (sorta) so I guess that's okay.
So today's post is about BOREDOM and what to do to fight it. Basically, I'm telling you what to do :D
1.Watch anime.
Duh, it's kinda obvious this would be here, I mean, anime is great so why not give it a try?
2.Get crafty
So, probably you don't have a talent, but there's tones of things you can do and that are cute if you mess up. Search on the internet for DIY's and you'll get hundreds of cute things to do. Friendship bracelets, ways to re-decorate your room, I don't know, get creative!
3. Watch a series
If you're like my parents and you dislike watching "cartoons" (if you do, what the fuck are you doing here?!) try watching a series with real people. Like Pretty Little Liars or Game of Thrones (I know that they have nothing to do with each other, that's exactly why I put them together c:). They aren't better than anime, but they're good... (jk, jk)
4. Do some exercise
This isn't a really good option, isn't it? But if you spend you're whole days at home you'll get fat. Now, if you want to get fat, you can ignore this option.
5. Play with your pet
This one speaks for itself. But if you don't have a pet, why not adopt one? There's thousands of animals waiting for you to give 'em love!
6. Make some friends.
Now if you're and anti social like me, you'll find out that it's hard to go outside and meet new people. So, I make friends online. Join and online group of people of a fandom that you're also in. That way, you and all those people have something in common that you can share and from that, a lovely friendship can be born. But, if you prefer physical people, join a club near your house.
7. Go out with your already made friends
If you already have friends, physical ones, go out with them. Go to the pool, to the movies or just for a walk. Or do a sleepover! I do those a lot with Maia and it's always lots of fun because we end up doing a bunch of things! We get creative and do some DIY's that we find adorable, we cook, we watch LOTR and Star Wars and stuff like that (our sleepovers are basically the only times when we watch those kinds of movies because we don't want to watch them alone and our other firiends don't like them. Except the boys, but we can't do a sleepover with boys. I really don't understand why, really, but our parents decide that we can't... I'm really dependent...) and we get pwetty! It's always a lot of fun. But if you don't have friends, maybe you want to check out number 6 first.
8. Write
Writing is always a great way to clean your mind, whether it's by writing on a journal or writing a story. So, make up a story and put it on the paper. And, if you're crafty enough, you can even start your own manga! But if you don't feel like writing a story, write your own life-story. Write on a journal what you did that day, how you felt, make lists, add colages, random stuff, and in the end, re-reading that journal will make you smile because you'll think "What an idiot I was!" :D
*swipes sweat of forehead* That was nice wasn't it? Lorac gives the best advice, doesn't she? I love her! :P Anyways, I hope you truly enjoyed this list and yeah, that's it. If you have anymore suggestions, I'd love to hear them on the comment thingy c:
Song of the day: Teenagers, by My Chemical Romance BECAUSE TEENAGERS SCARE THE LIVING SHIT OUT OF ME (I've been screaming this song and "Wellcome to the Black Parade" through my house all day, and my parents are getting annoyed, but you can't shut MCR up!!! :D)
Peace out dudes!
Lorac xx
So, I'm still watching Code Geass (yey for me) and I'm actually loving it! The episodes are getting better and the story is getting awesome and it's just ARGH I wanna know if he can save Japan! I'm excited.
Today I've watched Thor, the second movie, and I'm even more sad because (SPOILER) Loki died. I-a-WHY? But he died as a hero (sorta) so I guess that's okay.
So today's post is about BOREDOM and what to do to fight it. Basically, I'm telling you what to do :D
1.Watch anime.
Duh, it's kinda obvious this would be here, I mean, anime is great so why not give it a try?
2.Get crafty
So, probably you don't have a talent, but there's tones of things you can do and that are cute if you mess up. Search on the internet for DIY's and you'll get hundreds of cute things to do. Friendship bracelets, ways to re-decorate your room, I don't know, get creative!
3. Watch a series
If you're like my parents and you dislike watching "cartoons" (if you do, what the fuck are you doing here?!) try watching a series with real people. Like Pretty Little Liars or Game of Thrones (I know that they have nothing to do with each other, that's exactly why I put them together c:). They aren't better than anime, but they're good... (jk, jk)
4. Do some exercise
This isn't a really good option, isn't it? But if you spend you're whole days at home you'll get fat. Now, if you want to get fat, you can ignore this option.
5. Play with your pet
This one speaks for itself. But if you don't have a pet, why not adopt one? There's thousands of animals waiting for you to give 'em love!
6. Make some friends.
Now if you're and anti social like me, you'll find out that it's hard to go outside and meet new people. So, I make friends online. Join and online group of people of a fandom that you're also in. That way, you and all those people have something in common that you can share and from that, a lovely friendship can be born. But, if you prefer physical people, join a club near your house.
7. Go out with your already made friends
If you already have friends, physical ones, go out with them. Go to the pool, to the movies or just for a walk. Or do a sleepover! I do those a lot with Maia and it's always lots of fun because we end up doing a bunch of things! We get creative and do some DIY's that we find adorable, we cook, we watch LOTR and Star Wars and stuff like that (our sleepovers are basically the only times when we watch those kinds of movies because we don't want to watch them alone and our other firiends don't like them. Except the boys, but we can't do a sleepover with boys. I really don't understand why, really, but our parents decide that we can't... I'm really dependent...) and we get pwetty! It's always a lot of fun. But if you don't have friends, maybe you want to check out number 6 first.
8. Write
Writing is always a great way to clean your mind, whether it's by writing on a journal or writing a story. So, make up a story and put it on the paper. And, if you're crafty enough, you can even start your own manga! But if you don't feel like writing a story, write your own life-story. Write on a journal what you did that day, how you felt, make lists, add colages, random stuff, and in the end, re-reading that journal will make you smile because you'll think "What an idiot I was!" :D
*swipes sweat of forehead* That was nice wasn't it? Lorac gives the best advice, doesn't she? I love her! :P Anyways, I hope you truly enjoyed this list and yeah, that's it. If you have anymore suggestions, I'd love to hear them on the comment thingy c:
Song of the day: Teenagers, by My Chemical Romance BECAUSE TEENAGERS SCARE THE LIVING SHIT OUT OF ME (I've been screaming this song and "Wellcome to the Black Parade" through my house all day, and my parents are getting annoyed, but you can't shut MCR up!!! :D)
Peace out dudes!
Lorac xx
Tuesday, July 8, 2014
Attack on Titan and stuff
Hey!
I've never been so excited to write a blog post. I FINISHED ATTACK ON TITAN!!! Let's cheer to this everyone! I finished it and I loved it! I didn't like the end though. But I hope that there will be a season two. Because I believe in the manga there's more story? I don't know. I'm gonna read the manga now though. Online, even though I hate to read comics/manga online because the drawings are too small. I've tried it once and I hated it. I'm still hoping for the perfect app that alows me to make the drawings/ words bigger... Maybe there's already one... But it's probably not free so...
I actually finish AoT yesterday, at 2 am. The reson why I haven't made this post earlier? BECAUSE LORAC HAS A BUSY LIFE! No, actually I woke up right before lunch, so after lunch I watched a movie (Ender's Game, I have no words to describe how much I love that shit, it's so good and it has one of my favorite actors EVER (Asa Butterfield, from "Hugo's Invenction" (I may or may not have a crush on that boy but we all have to admit that he grew up since The Boy In The Striped Pijamas and he's hella sexy! Not as sexy as Rin Okumura though, no one can beat that tail and those blue flames ;D)) as the main character so, yep, I loved it. My mum told me it's inspired by a series of books, so she says she's going to buy the books for me for my birthday (which is actually next month :D) which I thought was really cool. Thanks mum!) and then I decided I was getting fat so I went for a bike ride. I'm really tired actually. I do play a sport, badminton, but it's a school club so, since school ended a month ago, I haven't exercised for a month. YEY. But it went well.
And now I'm watching a new anime called Code Geass. No, it's not Fairy Tail and I went with the anime James told me to watch instead with the one I wanted to. I'm hating myself right now because of that. But the anime isn't that bad, but the beggining is kinda boring I think. But James says it gets better so I guess I'll have to stick to it to see...
Also, CONNOR FRANTA LEFT O2L OH NO WHY? I cried so hard watching the video because feelings and I'm just ending it here or else I wont be able to stop. The video was out yesterday but I could only watch it today so, I think I'm kinda late.
Oh, and my parents had "The Talk" with me. Not the "Sex" talk, no, the talk where they tell me I have to stop watching so much "cartoons" and that I should do something productive with my holidays. And by productive, I think they mean study. But I'm not gonna do it. Sorry mum, sorry dad.
So yeah, it's a short post today because I'm tired from that bike ride. Soree.
Song of the day: Vegas Lights, by Panic! At The Disco. Any song by P!ATD is good, but Vegas Lights as been stuck in my head for ages!
Peace out dudes!
Lorac xx
I've never been so excited to write a blog post. I FINISHED ATTACK ON TITAN!!! Let's cheer to this everyone! I finished it and I loved it! I didn't like the end though. But I hope that there will be a season two. Because I believe in the manga there's more story? I don't know. I'm gonna read the manga now though. Online, even though I hate to read comics/manga online because the drawings are too small. I've tried it once and I hated it. I'm still hoping for the perfect app that alows me to make the drawings/ words bigger... Maybe there's already one... But it's probably not free so...
I actually finish AoT yesterday, at 2 am. The reson why I haven't made this post earlier? BECAUSE LORAC HAS A BUSY LIFE! No, actually I woke up right before lunch, so after lunch I watched a movie (Ender's Game, I have no words to describe how much I love that shit, it's so good and it has one of my favorite actors EVER (Asa Butterfield, from "Hugo's Invenction" (I may or may not have a crush on that boy but we all have to admit that he grew up since The Boy In The Striped Pijamas and he's hella sexy! Not as sexy as Rin Okumura though, no one can beat that tail and those blue flames ;D)) as the main character so, yep, I loved it. My mum told me it's inspired by a series of books, so she says she's going to buy the books for me for my birthday (which is actually next month :D) which I thought was really cool. Thanks mum!) and then I decided I was getting fat so I went for a bike ride. I'm really tired actually. I do play a sport, badminton, but it's a school club so, since school ended a month ago, I haven't exercised for a month. YEY. But it went well.
And now I'm watching a new anime called Code Geass. No, it's not Fairy Tail and I went with the anime James told me to watch instead with the one I wanted to. I'm hating myself right now because of that. But the anime isn't that bad, but the beggining is kinda boring I think. But James says it gets better so I guess I'll have to stick to it to see...
Also, CONNOR FRANTA LEFT O2L OH NO WHY? I cried so hard watching the video because feelings and I'm just ending it here or else I wont be able to stop. The video was out yesterday but I could only watch it today so, I think I'm kinda late.
Oh, and my parents had "The Talk" with me. Not the "Sex" talk, no, the talk where they tell me I have to stop watching so much "cartoons" and that I should do something productive with my holidays. And by productive, I think they mean study. But I'm not gonna do it. Sorry mum, sorry dad.
So yeah, it's a short post today because I'm tired from that bike ride. Soree.
Song of the day: Vegas Lights, by Panic! At The Disco. Any song by P!ATD is good, but Vegas Lights as been stuck in my head for ages!
Peace out dudes!
Lorac xx
Research
Don't you just hate it when you have Caps Lock on because you were online yelling at someone and then you're going to write something and you don't notice the Caps Lock, and you end up writing everything with capital letters where they shouldn't be? Well, me too. I guess that's why people use the Shift key.
Anyways, ignore my little rant.
Hey!
So, as a crazy lil' girl that I am, sometimes I find myself with nothing to do. Because I'm crazy enough to do everything at once. And then I end up bored and having nothing to do. No, I still have to finish Attack On Titan (blame me, but blame also George, he's getting really slow lately) but while the AOT episode is loading, I want to do some research (woah there, I used bold letters!)
So I have this list of animes I want to watch when I finish with Attack on Titan. And I've always wondered, How many episodes does each anime have? So, I decided to go onto Google and find that out, and share my information with you, along with some comments.
Sword Art Online
I heard about this one from Phil (AmazingPhil on YouTube) and from what he said I thought the anime was really cool (at least the storyline). It has 25 episode and 5 specials.
Kuroshitsuji AKA Black Butler
I heard about this anime in a Youtube video, and I saw the characters and I liked it, I really don't know why. It has two seasons, the first one has 24 episodes and an OVA (can you refer to it like that? an OVA? I dunno), the second has 12 episodes and 6 OVA's. Wikipedia says a third season has been announced and it will be broadcasted THIS MONTH (July 2014). I don't know if that's true or not, I don't really trust Wikipedia...
Ouran Highschool Host Club
I think the first time I knew about this anime was a year ago, in a MarziaPie video. But I might be confusing it with something else. I think I watched the first episode last year, but I stopped, I don't know why. I liked it though. I heard about it again this hear in a Youtube video. It has 26 episodes.
Free!
Loads of people were talking about season two of this anime, which I think came out three or four days ago? I don't know. But I felt curious, so I wrote it on my list. THERE'S A CHARACTER NAMED RIN :O It's a swimming anime? That's awesome, I get to see a bunch of anime guys half naked YAASSS!!! It has 12 episodes and the second season only has one (yet)
Fairy Tail
Heard about it in a Youtube video. IT HAS ONE HUNDRED AND EIGHTY FUCKING NINE EPISODES (189) ARE YOU SHITTING ME?! Wut? It was the anime I was most excited to watch because it has hot guys :c And it's still ongoing?! Okay, see the brightside here, you're gonna love it, and you're not going to be sad because it endend because IT'S SO FUCKING LONG! :D
Soul Eater
Also in a Youtube video. ARE YOU SHITTING ME MTV IN MY COUNTRY IS TRANSMITING THIS?! OMA that is awesome! It has 51 episodes. Wikipedia also mentioned a Soul Eater NOT (I don't know what that means) but I decided to not look any further because I'm lazy c:
Kaichou Wa Maid Sama AKA Maid Sama! (it means "The president is a maid!")
It's about a girl with a secret double-life? I like that. It has 26 episodes. *secretly does happy dance*
Clannad
23 episodes (22+1 special) and then you have two OVA's (still don't know if you can refer to them like that) and then there's Clannad after History, which has 24 episodes. I'm not ging to search what this one is about, I want a surprise!
Fullmetal Alchemist
OMA I've hear so many people talk about this that I thought "Add it to your list gurl, it must be good!". I'm guessing it's about alchemists? It seems cool. It has 51 episodes and FOR FUCK'S SAKE IT STREAMED ON NATIONAL TELIVISON WHAT IS LIFE MY COUNTRY HAVING ANIME ON TV WUT?! okay, I'm fine now. Oh, and then you have Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood, which has 64 episodes. Okay, I saw the trailer, I liked it!
So there you have it, my one hour anime research (this actually took me one hour, I bet AOT has already loaded 120% now) and I had fun. There will probably be more of this lists and stuff but yeah. Remember that all of this information is on Wikipedia and I'm not an anime-god, I don't know everything, so if there's any kind of mistakes, please tell me, I'll be glad to correct them. ^.^
Peace out dudes
Lorac xx
PS-I didn't bother to look at this again, because I just want to go and watch AOT so there's probably going to be a lot of speeling mistakes and things that don't make sense. I'll edit this post tomorrow. c:
Anyways, ignore my little rant.
Hey!
So, as a crazy lil' girl that I am, sometimes I find myself with nothing to do. Because I'm crazy enough to do everything at once. And then I end up bored and having nothing to do. No, I still have to finish Attack On Titan (blame me, but blame also George, he's getting really slow lately) but while the AOT episode is loading, I want to do some research (woah there, I used bold letters!)
So I have this list of animes I want to watch when I finish with Attack on Titan. And I've always wondered, How many episodes does each anime have? So, I decided to go onto Google and find that out, and share my information with you, along with some comments.
Sword Art Online
I heard about this one from Phil (AmazingPhil on YouTube) and from what he said I thought the anime was really cool (at least the storyline). It has 25 episode and 5 specials.
Kuroshitsuji AKA Black Butler
I heard about this anime in a Youtube video, and I saw the characters and I liked it, I really don't know why. It has two seasons, the first one has 24 episodes and an OVA (can you refer to it like that? an OVA? I dunno), the second has 12 episodes and 6 OVA's. Wikipedia says a third season has been announced and it will be broadcasted THIS MONTH (July 2014). I don't know if that's true or not, I don't really trust Wikipedia...
Ouran Highschool Host Club
I think the first time I knew about this anime was a year ago, in a MarziaPie video. But I might be confusing it with something else. I think I watched the first episode last year, but I stopped, I don't know why. I liked it though. I heard about it again this hear in a Youtube video. It has 26 episodes.
Free!
Loads of people were talking about season two of this anime, which I think came out three or four days ago? I don't know. But I felt curious, so I wrote it on my list. THERE'S A CHARACTER NAMED RIN :O It's a swimming anime? That's awesome, I get to see a bunch of anime guys half naked YAASSS!!! It has 12 episodes and the second season only has one (yet)
Fairy Tail
Heard about it in a Youtube video. IT HAS ONE HUNDRED AND EIGHTY FUCKING NINE EPISODES (189) ARE YOU SHITTING ME?! Wut? It was the anime I was most excited to watch because it has hot guys :c And it's still ongoing?! Okay, see the brightside here, you're gonna love it, and you're not going to be sad because it endend because IT'S SO FUCKING LONG! :D
Soul Eater
Also in a Youtube video. ARE YOU SHITTING ME MTV IN MY COUNTRY IS TRANSMITING THIS?! OMA that is awesome! It has 51 episodes. Wikipedia also mentioned a Soul Eater NOT (I don't know what that means) but I decided to not look any further because I'm lazy c:
Kaichou Wa Maid Sama AKA Maid Sama! (it means "The president is a maid!")
It's about a girl with a secret double-life? I like that. It has 26 episodes. *secretly does happy dance*
Clannad
23 episodes (22+1 special) and then you have two OVA's (still don't know if you can refer to them like that) and then there's Clannad after History, which has 24 episodes. I'm not ging to search what this one is about, I want a surprise!
Fullmetal Alchemist
OMA I've hear so many people talk about this that I thought "Add it to your list gurl, it must be good!". I'm guessing it's about alchemists? It seems cool. It has 51 episodes and FOR FUCK'S SAKE IT STREAMED ON NATIONAL TELIVISON WHAT IS LIFE MY COUNTRY HAVING ANIME ON TV WUT?! okay, I'm fine now. Oh, and then you have Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood, which has 64 episodes. Okay, I saw the trailer, I liked it!
So there you have it, my one hour anime research (this actually took me one hour, I bet AOT has already loaded 120% now) and I had fun. There will probably be more of this lists and stuff but yeah. Remember that all of this information is on Wikipedia and I'm not an anime-god, I don't know everything, so if there's any kind of mistakes, please tell me, I'll be glad to correct them. ^.^
Peace out dudes
Lorac xx
PS-I didn't bother to look at this again, because I just want to go and watch AOT so there's probably going to be a lot of speeling mistakes and things that don't make sense. I'll edit this post tomorrow. c:
Monday, July 7, 2014
Really interesting message
I lost my slippers... I'll keep you updated but I have no idea where they are...
2 minutes later
UPDATE: Found my slippers. They were under a pillow. I'm glad I found them, I need them to walk to the kitchen to eat. Because my parents won't allow me to walk around the house foot-naked :c
2 minutes later
UPDATE: Found my slippers. They were under a pillow. I'm glad I found them, I need them to walk to the kitchen to eat. Because my parents won't allow me to walk around the house foot-naked :c
Fanficitons
Hey!
Song of the day: I Miss You- blink 182 (it's a great song and I love screaming "DON'T WASTE YOUR TIME ON ME YOU'RE ALREADY THE VOICE INSIDE MY HEAD!" to everyone because it's just beautiful. :D (I'm doing it right now)
So, yesterday, at 2 am, when I was in my bed, not sleeping but not entirely awake, I decided that this blog would not be just about anime. Anime mainly, but not just anime. And by the title of this post, you can guest what I'm going to talk about. That's right baby, fanficitons!
As a proper fangirl, I find myself searching through the wattpad library for a good One Direction fanfiction (yes, judge me, I listen to 1D, who cares?) simply because I have nothing else to do. And sometimes a find someone that as a talent for writing. And then I think "What a waste of talent" and I start to hate fanfictions, so I stop reading for a while. Sometimes I find myself thinking "What if the people that are in this fanfiction (One Direction in this case) ever read this?" I know they have read some, they've said that themselves but... What do they think? I mean, if someone wrote a fanfiction about me, I wouldn't like it. People are imagining kissing you and having sex with you and do all sorts of weird stuff with you. It's like mastubating thinking of you. Yeah, that's gross.
But, because I'm not famous, I don't know how to handle the fact that someone is imagining stuff with me. But I bet One Direction (specially Harry) wouldn'te feel very confortable if they read the After fanfiction. Yuc.
On the other side, I've find myself typing on good ol' Georgie a Zayn Malik fanfiction. I'm not proud of it. Of the fanfiction. It really sucks. And I kinda understand the people who write them. Because you can't have them, you picture yourself with them, doing cute stuff and going through all the relationship drama with them. And other people can relate to that, so they'll read your fanfiction. And you'll be happy because even if it's only in your imagination, or on wattpad, you can feel like it was really happening, and that gives you a little bit of happiness.
The good thing about fanficiton is that if you're a good writer, people will like it and compliment you. It doesn't matter what you write, you'll be complimented because you have a talent. Even if you're wasting it writing some 1D fanficiton.
Anyways, to resume all of this. I'm not against fanfiction. I think that's great that people are writing and other people are reading and everybody is happy. But smut? (I guess this post was all about smut in the end ;D) I mean, c'mon! Go find a porn site or something. And think about One Direction! They're not porn stars or anything...
Peace out dudes
Lorac xx
Song of the day: I Miss You- blink 182 (it's a great song and I love screaming "DON'T WASTE YOUR TIME ON ME YOU'RE ALREADY THE VOICE INSIDE MY HEAD!" to everyone because it's just beautiful. :D (I'm doing it right now)
PS-there's nothing wrong with smut, or fanficitons. Please note that this is my opinion, and that I like to insult people. Please don't take it seriously, I do that all the time. And, I have read After, so I'm one to blame c;
Sunday, July 6, 2014
A night in the life of Lorac: Tryin' to watch anime
Okay, it's ten pm, time to finish Attack on Titan.
Wait, I don't think I'm ready to finish that show.
Okay, I am, let's go.
AnimeFake.com
Watch Episode 21
*loading*
half an hour later...
*loading*
Better check out tumblr.
half an hour later
OH NO I LOST MY INTERNET CONNECT- Wait, there she is (yes, my internet connection is a girl, problem?)
But it still hasn't loaded the episode? Better go on Facebook.
Wait, it changed again? Mark, you need to stop changing the design of your website, it's really confusing me... Yeh, but anime can be even more confusing.
WAIT I'M ONLINE? 'Kay, time to check the website.
'Exceded time limit' DA FUC?!
F5 F5 F5
Okay, wait more thirty minutes.
Better log in on Steam. Wait, I can't because I LOST MY FUCKING INTERNET CONNECTION... AGAIN!
Turn off W-Lan thingy.
Turn it on again.
Wait to have wi- Wait, what do you mean you don't catch the wi-fi?!?
IT CONNECTED!
*signing in*
I'M ON!!! *heaven's light*
F5 on the episode page.
Better not lose the fucking connection again.
Refresh Facebook. Close Tumblr, it spends too much internet, I need to save it for the anime (lol my logic)
Wait, why don't you close Tumblr? Close, close, CLOSE!!!
My computer is so slow... Damn you, Windows XP!
OH NO I LOST HER AGAIN!!!
I'm so sad, yesterday I was on the computer until 4 am, why can't I have the internet now? Wait, maybe the internet gods think I've had too much internet yesterday and they think that today I don't deserve it. Or maybe the person who's giving the internet to me just moved away (I use a hostspot thingy, it's weird, don't even ask)
Let's do a test.
*Unlocks phone* Own, Rin, you're so adorable! *turns on wi-fi* Yep, definately, the person who's giving me the internet has moved away...
Oh no. What am I supposed to do now?
But I went on the internet just two hours ago, what happened?
I'M SO CONFUSED!!!
Repair? Repair what? UH, repair my internet connection! *repairing*
It's gonna take a while...
*reads a wattpad fanfiction*
*checks 'repairing'*
It's stll renovating the IP adress? But it's been doing that for HOURS!!!
I can't take it!
*turns off W-Lan thingy
*turns it on once again*
*waits*
*tries to connect to the hotspot*
I'm hungry.
*waits more*
*tries repairing the connection again*
*commits suicide because can't live without internet/anime*
*COME TO LIFE AGAIN BECAUSE CONNECTED TO THE INTERNET!!!*
OMA YASSS
*close all unecessary tabs*
*opens Steam*
It's loading, it's loading, it's loading yassssss
That's a cute name. Shingeki no Kyojin. I'M HAPPY!!!
*checks internet speed*
"very slow"
*moves closer to the window*
*loses the internet*
*finds it again*
*checks Steam*
*jumps happily because James's online*
(yeah, I may or may not have a crush on my best friend... DO NOT JUDGE ME!)
*finds out that he actually isn't online, it was just George (my computer) messing with me*
*checks the AOT tab*
*waits patiently for it to load*
I'm hungry.
*does happy dance because the episode has loaded and James messaged me*
MY LIFE IS GREAT!
Hey, hey, hey.
So, this is diferent... Got to go, James messaging me like hell, and the Steam messaging sound is annoying.
BTW everything said above actually just happened so yeah.
Peace out dudes!
Lorac xx
Wait, I don't think I'm ready to finish that show.
Okay, I am, let's go.
AnimeFake.com
Watch Episode 21
*loading*
half an hour later...
*loading*
Better check out tumblr.
half an hour later
OH NO I LOST MY INTERNET CONNECT- Wait, there she is (yes, my internet connection is a girl, problem?)
But it still hasn't loaded the episode? Better go on Facebook.
Wait, it changed again? Mark, you need to stop changing the design of your website, it's really confusing me... Yeh, but anime can be even more confusing.
WAIT I'M ONLINE? 'Kay, time to check the website.
'Exceded time limit' DA FUC?!
F5 F5 F5
Okay, wait more thirty minutes.
Better log in on Steam. Wait, I can't because I LOST MY FUCKING INTERNET CONNECTION... AGAIN!
Turn off W-Lan thingy.
Turn it on again.
Wait to have wi- Wait, what do you mean you don't catch the wi-fi?!?
IT CONNECTED!
*signing in*
I'M ON!!! *heaven's light*
F5 on the episode page.
Better not lose the fucking connection again.
Refresh Facebook. Close Tumblr, it spends too much internet, I need to save it for the anime (lol my logic)
Wait, why don't you close Tumblr? Close, close, CLOSE!!!
My computer is so slow... Damn you, Windows XP!
OH NO I LOST HER AGAIN!!!
I'm so sad, yesterday I was on the computer until 4 am, why can't I have the internet now? Wait, maybe the internet gods think I've had too much internet yesterday and they think that today I don't deserve it. Or maybe the person who's giving the internet to me just moved away (I use a hostspot thingy, it's weird, don't even ask)
Let's do a test.
*Unlocks phone* Own, Rin, you're so adorable! *turns on wi-fi* Yep, definately, the person who's giving me the internet has moved away...
Oh no. What am I supposed to do now?
But I went on the internet just two hours ago, what happened?
I'M SO CONFUSED!!!
Repair? Repair what? UH, repair my internet connection! *repairing*
It's gonna take a while...
*reads a wattpad fanfiction*
*checks 'repairing'*
It's stll renovating the IP adress? But it's been doing that for HOURS!!!
I can't take it!
*turns off W-Lan thingy
*turns it on once again*
*waits*
*tries to connect to the hotspot*
I'm hungry.
*waits more*
*tries repairing the connection again*
*commits suicide because can't live without internet/anime*
*COME TO LIFE AGAIN BECAUSE CONNECTED TO THE INTERNET!!!*
OMA YASSS
*close all unecessary tabs*
*opens Steam*
It's loading, it's loading, it's loading yassssss
That's a cute name. Shingeki no Kyojin. I'M HAPPY!!!
*checks internet speed*
"very slow"
*moves closer to the window*
*loses the internet*
*finds it again*
*checks Steam*
*jumps happily because James's online*
(yeah, I may or may not have a crush on my best friend... DO NOT JUDGE ME!)
*finds out that he actually isn't online, it was just George (my computer) messing with me*
*checks the AOT tab*
*waits patiently for it to load*
I'm hungry.
*does happy dance because the episode has loaded and James messaged me*
MY LIFE IS GREAT!
Hey, hey, hey.
So, this is diferent... Got to go, James messaging me like hell, and the Steam messaging sound is annoying.
BTW everything said above actually just happened so yeah.
Peace out dudes!
Lorac xx
Hey
Hey!
Okay, long story short. I'm Lorac, 15, not american, slgihtly worried because I might be addicted to anime. That's basicly the reason why I decided to start this blog.
Don't judge me if there's any spelling mistakes. I'm too lazy to check the thingy that verifies your grammar.
So, okay, this is going to be so weird writing for the internet, but I don't feel like writing in a physical journal and if it's on the internet, it might force me to try to write in here most of the days. Because if I write, usually I'm happier and I don't have to carry so much on my shoulders aka my thoughts.
And, I really want to share my anime adventures with you people because I started wacthing anime and I kinda got addicted to it.? God, this sounds so lame. Anyways, it was actually my best friend who introduced me to Death Note and then I kinda liked it and then he said "Watch the Blue Exorcist!" and now I might be "in love" with Rin Okumura... What can I do, he has a freaking TAIL and his flames are BLUE and he's adorable!!! And now I'm watching attack on Titan and everybody's like "OH MY GOD KEEP WATCHING IT BECAUSE PLOT TWISTS, LEVI, TITANS" and I'm like "OMA I'm so confused!" but I kinda like it. But I have to admite that Ao No Exorcist is more my kind of anime...? I don't even know what's my kind of anime. Are there kinds of anime? How do you say anime? Like, animeH or anIme? I don't know...
Also, I JUST GOT RID OF EXAMS AND MY SCHOOL but at the same time I'm feeling conflictuated (is this a word?) because I'm leaving the guys that sticked with me for four years and I don't think I can't handle it. I mean, I'm not good with people, let me get this straight. I'm kinda of an antisocial... I don't know if you english/americans use this word? Do you? I don't know. Anyways, I'm kinda of an antisocial and my dad actually got mad at me because of that... Pff, dumb dad. And because I'm not good with people, it took me a long time to actually accept them as my close friends. (In the begining everybody was like "I LOVE YOU OMA!!!" but then I was like "WUT? Why do I love them?" and I had a thing in my brain that told me "Why would you like them? They don't like you" and then... you see the scenario) And to be best friends with, well, my best friends (James and Maia, in case you were wondering their names...) This shit is getting confusing. Actually, I'm not even sorry.
I'm four episodes away from finishing Attack On Titan. The next anime I'm going to watch it's... I think it's Fairy Tail (I think you write it like that? I dunno). But James (you know, the guy that introduced me to anime) says that I have to watch other animes but I'm like HELL NO I'M GONNA BE A REBELIOUS AND DO MY THING and also, who cares what I watch or not? I mean, I have the whole summer ahead of me.
I'm so afraid that someone I know will find out about this, because I don't say these things to them, I'm not brave enough. And, yeah. It would be weird if they found out so, I hope this blog stays in the shadows forever...
Song of the day: Me and Creed, by I don't know the name of the artist but it's a song from The Blue Exorcist and it just makes me feel so powerfull and happy because in the anime, when it plays, it means something big and awesome is about to happen and arghh, I just love that shit so much! I still need to see the movie. Actually, There's a lot of things I need to watch, like Game Of Thrones and Dr. Who and Breaking Bad... I actually fear that I won't have enough time to watch all of that plus the animes I want to watch... Ahh, the summer life of a teenager :D
Peace out dudes! (yes, I just used Jason's (veeoneeye on youtube, check him out, he's awesome!) way to call his viewers but you know what? I don't give a what! (Ricky Dillon, I know, I'm awesome!))
Lorac xx
Okay, long story short. I'm Lorac, 15, not american, slgihtly worried because I might be addicted to anime. That's basicly the reason why I decided to start this blog.
Don't judge me if there's any spelling mistakes. I'm too lazy to check the thingy that verifies your grammar.
So, okay, this is going to be so weird writing for the internet, but I don't feel like writing in a physical journal and if it's on the internet, it might force me to try to write in here most of the days. Because if I write, usually I'm happier and I don't have to carry so much on my shoulders aka my thoughts.
And, I really want to share my anime adventures with you people because I started wacthing anime and I kinda got addicted to it.? God, this sounds so lame. Anyways, it was actually my best friend who introduced me to Death Note and then I kinda liked it and then he said "Watch the Blue Exorcist!" and now I might be "in love" with Rin Okumura... What can I do, he has a freaking TAIL and his flames are BLUE and he's adorable!!! And now I'm watching attack on Titan and everybody's like "OH MY GOD KEEP WATCHING IT BECAUSE PLOT TWISTS, LEVI, TITANS" and I'm like "OMA I'm so confused!" but I kinda like it. But I have to admite that Ao No Exorcist is more my kind of anime...? I don't even know what's my kind of anime. Are there kinds of anime? How do you say anime? Like, animeH or anIme? I don't know...
Also, I JUST GOT RID OF EXAMS AND MY SCHOOL but at the same time I'm feeling conflictuated (is this a word?) because I'm leaving the guys that sticked with me for four years and I don't think I can't handle it. I mean, I'm not good with people, let me get this straight. I'm kinda of an antisocial... I don't know if you english/americans use this word? Do you? I don't know. Anyways, I'm kinda of an antisocial and my dad actually got mad at me because of that... Pff, dumb dad. And because I'm not good with people, it took me a long time to actually accept them as my close friends. (In the begining everybody was like "I LOVE YOU OMA!!!" but then I was like "WUT? Why do I love them?" and I had a thing in my brain that told me "Why would you like them? They don't like you" and then... you see the scenario) And to be best friends with, well, my best friends (James and Maia, in case you were wondering their names...) This shit is getting confusing. Actually, I'm not even sorry.
I'm four episodes away from finishing Attack On Titan. The next anime I'm going to watch it's... I think it's Fairy Tail (I think you write it like that? I dunno). But James (you know, the guy that introduced me to anime) says that I have to watch other animes but I'm like HELL NO I'M GONNA BE A REBELIOUS AND DO MY THING and also, who cares what I watch or not? I mean, I have the whole summer ahead of me.
I'm so afraid that someone I know will find out about this, because I don't say these things to them, I'm not brave enough. And, yeah. It would be weird if they found out so, I hope this blog stays in the shadows forever...
Song of the day: Me and Creed, by I don't know the name of the artist but it's a song from The Blue Exorcist and it just makes me feel so powerfull and happy because in the anime, when it plays, it means something big and awesome is about to happen and arghh, I just love that shit so much! I still need to see the movie. Actually, There's a lot of things I need to watch, like Game Of Thrones and Dr. Who and Breaking Bad... I actually fear that I won't have enough time to watch all of that plus the animes I want to watch... Ahh, the summer life of a teenager :D
Peace out dudes! (yes, I just used Jason's (veeoneeye on youtube, check him out, he's awesome!) way to call his viewers but you know what? I don't give a what! (Ricky Dillon, I know, I'm awesome!))
Lorac xx
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