Hey!
Hi. Hello there. It's been a long time hasn't it? It feels like too long. I've missed writing here. But school kinda keeps me busy. Except on the weekends.
So, let's start with the easy part, anime. FREE! BROKE MY HEART AND MADE ME FEEL SO HAPPY AT THE SAME TIME LIKE OMFA THAT SHIT IS SO CHEESY BUT AT THE SAME TIME IT MAKES ME WANT A FRIENDSHIP LIKE THEIRS AND ARGHSKJAJNDF RIN MUST MEAN ADORABLENESS BECAUSE THIS RIN IS ALSO ADORABLE AND CUTE IN HIS OWN WAY ASDSFKJDBNVSD THE FEELS!! I've finished downloading Sword Art Online, so I can watch it at school. Yey!
So, where do I go from here? Should I talk about my new school, James, my youtube channel or my parents.
My youtube channel. Me and Maia (AKA my best friend, as you may know, and whom real name is actually Rachel, i just use diferent names to protect their identities; for instance, James real name isn't James, but I not going to say it anyways.) are creating a youtube channel called the Machelli Project. The first two videos should have been out by wednesday the 1st and friday the 3rd, but Maia uploaded the unedited version and was unable to edit the video on time, so the Machelli Project will only exist next week. I'm excited.
Now about things that are kinda sad. And kinda serious. My parents argue. A lot. Since I remember there wasn't a single month that passed without my parents having a fight. And I thought it was okay, normal, for parents to call each other names and call out all the bad things they've ever done. I'd always thought it was normal, okay, because in the end they always restarted speaking to each other and being nice. But I was 6 at the time (the age when I remember the first BIG fight) and the only outside interaction I had was at school, where there weren't more parents for me to compare. But then I started going to sleepovers, and I realized that other people's parents didn't fight. Obviously because I was there. But still. They always seemed so... Lovely and happy near each other. And my friends never complained about their parents. I also never did. It wasn't something I was proud of, and because I thought it was normal, I never felt the urge to comment that. You don't comment what's normal. But in the past three years, my parents have been fighting a lot more than usual. And the aftermath usually lasts for two to three weeks before everything comes to normal. And now my mom is saying that she wants the divorce. But that she can't divorce my dad because she has no money, and we're drowning in my dads debts, which are my mom's because he made her sign the papers. And my mom is the only one who works in the house, and there's no money coming now because 1) the debts and 2) my parents had a car crush in may, and while my dad came out withouth gettin hurt, my mom broke a thing in her back, and now she hasn't been working since then. And about four days ago, my mom burst into my room, aparently in the middle of a fight (I didn't hear because I had my headphones on) and says with that voice that means trouble "Where's my phone, I need to call the police, your father just hit me.". And my heart stoped. And I didn't know what to do. I started crying but I stopped because I don't cry, and then I went to see what was happening and my dad was screaming and my mom was screaming and my grandad was with his hand on my mom's shoulder saying 'calm down there's no need to fight' and then my dad says "Lora go to your room and close the door" and I got really scared. But now they still don't speak and I don't know what to do. It was the first time my dad physically hurted my mom, and I don't know.
(update from future lora in july 2015: I make it sound like this is a really bad thing. I was scared for the future of my parents. But things weren't that bad, even though they sound like it. honestly, i'm considering taking this post down because it might give the internet the wrong idea)
But onto more happy things. Okay, maybe not so happy. James. James. James has got a freaking crush. On a girl. Like WUT?! You can't do this to me boy, it's not allowed. You're breaking the law. And my heart. Even though I swore to Maia that I didn't like him anymore. And though I swore to myself that no boy would ever broke my heart and that I would never cry over some stupid crush. That doesn't even exist anymore in this case. But still. The guy is a cold-hearted bitch and now he has a fucking crush?! Nope, nope, that is wrong. And I don't know who the fuck she is, but I bet she's hot and cute and a lot nerdier than I am, and I bet she's beautiful and I bet that they look so cute together and that they oh angel, oh my dear angel, please kill my feelings now.
Okay. I'm okay.
On to the new school. OH MY FUCKING ANGEL I HAVE FRIENDS. There's this guy who is the worst person ever and he's really mean and I really hate him and he's always making fun of me. I shouldn't take it personal, but I do because insecurities. And he's a douchebag. And then there's this really tall guy called Luke (omfa I hope that Jess (remember her? the girl who dislikes 5sos but loves atl?) doesn't read this, I'm gonna get so much crap about this... oh well...) who I think I've already mentioned and he's fucking adorable and cute and he's adorable. And tall. And me and Jess love to hug him. Well, we love to hug everyone. Especially this guy called Cole who sits next to Jess in class, and in front of me, and we love to annoy the shit out of him. And he's an idiot but he's also really cute and he's voice is really nice to hear and adfg it's cute. (Wait Jess, I hope that you aren't reading this, please don't be reading this. I love you.) and then there's his friend called Michael and he's an adorable little tumblr shit that listens to blink-182 and he's cute. There are a lot of cute people in my class now that I think about it. Oh well.
And Friday (yesterday) I had a little breakdown, and I stopped being bubbly and hyper and Jess noticed and she tried to cheer me up and it was really cute and then Cole also noticed and he wasn't taling to me because I called him an idiot and then he asked what was wrong and I didn't told them and they tried to cheer me up anyways and it was really cute and argh friends are so nice. Also, they give the best hugs.
Talking about the now, I'm sick, really sick. I think it's sun stroke or whatever you call it, but yeah, I have that because tuesday we went to the park and it was really sunny and my head and sun and sweat and now my head hurts. And I should study for a math quiz I'm having this monday but I can't because my head hurts. And I can't take any medication because I'm kinda staright edge and I don't do drugs so no medicine for me but it hurts. Wait, I've just realized that I toke two pills because of a reaction my body made to a mosquito bite. WAIT I BROKE THE LAW OH NO. Oh well, there's nothing I can do now. Anyways.
ALSO IN THE LAST WEEK OF OCTOBER MY PE CLASSES WILL BE ON THE SWIMMING POOL NEXT TO MY SCHOOL AND WE'RE GOING TO SWIM AND LEARN HOW TO SWIM AND 1)FREE! AND 2) I'M GOING TO BE GOU BECAUSE HALF NAKED WET SEXY DUMB WITH FUCKING NIPPLES GUYS OMFA IT'S GOING TO BE GREAT!!!
song of the day: Begin again, by The Summer Set. I've been listening to a lot of their music recently, and I just love the vibes that their songs sent, and begin again has to be one of my favourite songs by them.
So baii guyeses.
Peace out dragons (i stopped using dudes since veeoneeye's scandal and yeah, I don't wanna talk 'bout that...) (and dragons is much cooler) (i mean) (dragons)
Lorac xx
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